Wednesday, 23 April 2014

301

Last week I posted my Three Hundredth blog post.  I had reached my goal of three hundred before I hit my Five Thousandth page view and before I hit my fourth year blogging.  And I am still alive.  I am still single and I am still unhappy, but I know better who I am and I have a better grip upon my Asperger's Syndrome, also known as Autism Spectrum Disorder.

For a while I was posting about once every two days or three but lately it has been less.  There have been a few themes that I have written on, Astronomy, Roleplaying games, ASD, stuff I figure out and a whole bunch of other things.  There is still more to come I am sure.  

Stuff has changed in four years, I am no longer in love with and obsessing over MPTR, I have let go emotionally of Seven.  Gained and lost attachment to MagicEyes.  Stopped depending on motor vehicles.  Made friends, lost friends, lost more than I gained, but we're they really friends or just acquaintances?  New types of friends, I have Facebook Friends that I have never met and will never meet but people who I have met but seem to have migrated exclusively to the Internet.  WaifGirl, who gave me the unwitting push to start this blog, who I have met in person one hundred times seems to only be comfortable talking to me when separated by more than 100kms but now that we are five time zones away wants to chat  ore than once a week on average, not that I am complaining — it might just be that my online personality is much better than my I presence one, I probably leer less.  Or it might be that I have known her just long enough that she does not need to explain much to me, I have read her blog through a few of her trials might be difficult to explain and she has read enough of my blog to see into me.  Difficult to say.

Stats:

Overview

Pageviews today
1
Pageviews yesterday
0
Pageviews last month
90
Pageviews all time history
4,700

Posts
Entry Pageviews
Lonely feminist atheist 28 Nov 2012.    122

IQ vs EQ 12 Aug 2011, 1 comment.  41

Seventh Day Adventist Fraud 17 Nov 2012. 40

Exalted story against the Slave states 2 Jan 2013. 27

Kepler 22b part two 18 Dec 2011, 1 comment. 25

Dear commenter 14 Feb 2012.  20

Real Steel a Reel Steal 1 Dec 2012. 18

Two names on a Cenotaph 12 Nov 2012. 17

40 year old Virgin?  3 Jan 2012, 1 comment. 12

Cambrian Explosion or Cambrian Conclusion? 11 Feb 2012, 1 comment.  11

Referring URLs

Entry Pageviews
http://www.vampirestat.com
229
http://r-e-f-e-r-e-r.com/green-psychopomp.blogspot.com
135
http://www.vampirestat.com/
68
http://domar.ru/
53
http://www.7secretsearch.com
36
http://www.filmhill.com/redirect.php?url=http://flf-course.com?a_aid=510d2acc92117&a_bid=6f93443e
36
http://www.adsensewatchdog.com
33
http://semalt.com/crawler.php?u=http://green-psychopomp.blogspot.com
25
https://www.google.com/
23
http://semalt.com/competitors_review.php?u=http://green-psychopomp.blogspot.com
22


Referring Sites

Entry Pageviews
www.vampirestat.com
297
www.google.com
211
r-e-f-e-r-e-r.com
148
www.google.ca
87
domar.ru
55
www.filmhill.com
50
semalt.com
47
www.7secretsearch.com
36
www.adsensewatchdog.com
34
topblogstories.com
31


Search Keywords

Entry Pageviews
green-psychopomp.blogspot.com
27
greenpsychopomp
23
tanya nebroski
7
r-e-f-e-r-e-r.com
6
fictional childbirth
4
adventist fraud
3
high eq means
3
smarts vs strength
3
9math pegnat sex woman
2


Pageviews by Countries

Entry Pageviews
Canada
1452
United States
1331
Russia
355
Germany
279
Latvia
214
China
133
United Kingdom
99
South Korea
62
Ukraine
48
Brazil
30

Pageviews by Browsers

Entry Pageviews
Internet Explorer
2202 (47%)
Chrome
998 (21%)
Firefox
882 (18%)
Safari
252 (5%)
Opera
195 (4%)
Mobile Safari
110 (2%)
chromeframe
16 (<1%)
GranParadiso
9 (<1%)
NS8
4 (<1%)
Netscape
3 (<1%)

Pageviews by Operating Systems

Entry Pageviews
Windows
3605 (76%)
Linux
403 (8%)
Macintosh
292 (6%)
Android
190 (4%)
iPhone
112 (2%)
iPad
49 (1%)
Other Unix
16 (<1%)
BlackBerry
10 (<1%)
Windows NT 6.1
5 (<1%)
iPod
2 (<1%)


I love analysis, I have done a bit.  I am very disappointed by what has viewed my posts most often, robot search engines like every single one of the referring URLs.  I like to look at the operating systems that people use as well as their platforms, from that I can tell which of my friends is reading my posts when in combination with country of origin.  Almost all the South Korea hits are from a friend.  Interestingly, almost all the hits from China were for one blog post, Lonely Feminist Atheist.

My most interesting, to the masses, posts were written between November and February each year, and my most interested period do time was that time in 2012 to 2013.  One of my first posts is still on the top ten, only recently passed by.  A few of my posts that I am proud of are on that list, along with one that I hate and deleted once or twice.  40 year old Virgin was a lie and I hate lying.  I was trying to throw off MPTR's partner who I am convinced was stalking my blogs.  In the end MPTR marks a very destructive chapter in my life, the cure might have been worse than the poison that it was.

Stalkers, I have had a few, I think 90% confidence that the NSA was stalking my blog posts, but realistically I know that it could have been Homeland Security too.  Or the CIA.  Now I sound paranoid, but I will explain later perhaps.  I think they have stopped, or have found a better way to do it so I can't see….

I have a few people who read me regularly, MagicEyes, the man from South Korea, a witch from even deeper into Boonieland than I, WaifGirl on occasion. They have all taught me something about myself from them reading me.  WaifGirl taught me to censor myself on occasion TMI!!  Not sure what I should call my friend in Korea, Bart Simpson or something maybe Karl Simpson, but his blog contains a lot of hypertext and a few blogs I did this too, before my good computer died that is.  That Witch who I also don't have a name for would like to be called That Witch, because she would find that humourous, taught me to not take myself seriously all the time, but that is a lesson that I probably need more beatings of it into me.  MagicEyes, told me that I can write, and that she likes to read me, that I should refine my talent and write that book that is in the back of my mind, if I can ever figure out how to do dialogue.  She also taught me not to hold back.  I tried to have a deeper relationship with her and after every meeting she would not tell me how it went, she would make me tell her how it went, which was so difficult for me, because I can't read people and I never wanted to mess up the possibilities by saying the wrong thing.  Whether it was because she was the same as me or what, she pushed me to tell her how I felt and then confirmed it.  MagicEyes btw is a published author, so it gives me some hope, that if she thinks that I can write, I can write.  

Most of my posts have been read once, some though have not been read at all, at least that is what BlogSpot tells me, though I am not sure how it counts things.  The ones that were not read were poems to MagicEyes.  Some of them.

Ever do a google search?  On yourself?  On your blog?  I did I learned a few surprising things.  I am not that important for one, but some amazing things I did notice the Northern Territories of Canada had listed a couple of my posts as of interest to the development of the North.  So it is not just the NSA that reads my posts.

On that I am not normally paranoid, well not beyond the normal background rates of general paranoia, but the human mind is good at picking up patterns and I saw a pattern and then I watched it and most patterns are one of two things a conscious act or a set of randomness and chance that appears to be a pattern when it isn't.  I made a post and a few minutes later the post was read by someone in the United States, on a PC using a Linux operating system.  Sometimes it was read as soon as five minutes after I posted, sometimes it was read an hour after I posted, but never more than an hour.  Sometimes I posted at 3am sometimes at 3pm, but always it was read within an hour, usually within fifteen minutes of my posting. 

Before the tragedy of September 11, 2001, there were paranoid arms of the US government that went searching for terrorists and people looking to harm the American government, one such arm is called the NSA, the National Security Agency or No Such Agency.  It exists, it is bigger than the American Army and it is almost completely ineffective against any real threat, as any real threat would not trust telephones or email or such, but still it is there.  They monitor all electronic forms of communication, looking for words used together or apart in conversations.  Bomb, package, hijack, anarchy, liberal, you know all those scary words and when one person says enough or the right combination of words they follow them and alert people to listen in on these conversations.  The first step I should mention works through computers, super computers.  When someone is identified, all their friends and associates are also identified and monitored.  They don't know who is a real threat and who is just harmless.  Truthfully, it was probably my friends that caused this scrutiny, I had quite a few friends who were active Socialists and there is not scarier word in the States than Socialism.

Anyways, the difference between me telling you about this and Conspiracy Theorist, is that I DON'T CARE what they do.  I know I am not a threat and I am not doing anything wrong, mostly it just does not matter, but it does not stop me from thinking that it was interesting that they, whoever they are, we're following my blog.  It is that they were not "Following" my blog the traditional way, ie subscribing, but they knew when I posted and viewed my page usually within fifteen minutes of me posting.  I thought it was cool.

So anyways this is my 301st post and as of this moment 4704 page views, and the NSA stalker has left me alone again.

Thursday, 17 April 2014

Gender, Sex and Sexuality

I have been skirting the issue, an issue, for years.  I have been thinking of how to write about it for months and ultimately years, but this is the first time that I am tackling it.  It comes down to my words as well, why did I say tackle and not express my views, why not commit my ideas to words.

The issue is how I, how you, how people think: about themselves, the people they know and everyone else.  It is something that society dictates to us and it is something we are raised as and in.  It is the source of a lot of the division in society, inequity and personal strife.  It is also the focus of violence in many many countries, I suspect all countries, but I am not sure there might be one country out there that that has none of these issues, it might be in Scandinavia.

What a great build up, Eh?  Most people think that there are only two possibilities, but what I, and some other people propose is that there are two spectrums and one polar position, and the combination gives us the focus of the strife.  I am suggesting that people, all people, are on each spectrum and are in one polar position.  The simple term is Gender, but there are three wrapped up in that one word: Gender, Sexuality and Sex.

Sex is the easiest one, usually.  We are all one or the other.  It is dependent on whether you have a Y chromosome or not, but there are a few abnormalities, hermaphrodites and mutations like two penises, and internal testes.  Usually there is one working sex, that is what Sex is represented by, nothing else.  The vast majority of people are female or male.

Sexuality is something that may be drawing to a close in societies understanding, the information is out there, and there are a lot of people that are accepting and more people that are not, but I say it is drawing to a close, because people are talking about it and reacting to it.  People want to make it about one or the other but not both.  Truthfully, most people are okay with people who are one or the other, but are not okay with both.  Most.  Most is the wrong word.  There are a lot of people that are not okay with anything other than heterosexuality.  But it is a spectrum, not a polar position, once you accept this, you are a better person.  There something called the Kinsey Scale, where do you fit on a ten point scale with exclusive heterosexuality on one side and exclusive homosexuality on the other.  Exclusive, means never a thought never an experience, no desire at all.  Between the extremes: most people fit along the line of varying degrees of bisexuality, desire only, experienced, or full throttle and on either end all over the place.  

It must be said that there is still a lot of violence and discrimination based upon this Sexuality Spectrum.  The reasons may be centered in the plethora of Bronze Age Religions that cover this world which focused on procreation and since procreation can only happen through heterosexual interactions, most of them have rules about the rest of the spectrum.  The root is there, but there is fear too.  People fear what they are not used to, there is nothing to fear from bisexuality or homosexuality and people are starting to understand this.

Gender is the other spectrum.  This is the largest and most unknown aspect of out individual lives and it is completely artificial too, but because of our society and Gender Roles, Gender was created.  Gender is the role that you fill in society simply or more complexly how you feel about yourself.  Back in the day Gender was attached firmly, inseparably from Sex and your Sexuality was attached to your Gender.  Homosexuals were considered or the opposite Gender.  Gay men were Feminine and lesbians were butch or masculine; Gender was a polarity.  This idea is patently false, but people including homosexuals bought into it.  You could tell who these sexual deviants were because they looked and acted differently.

But this was false, of course.  Back in the Nineties, a new term started to hit the public: Lipstick Lesbians.  These were lesbians who liked to dress like the traditional woman.  A little while later the Bear became known, the masculine gay man.  To be clear, both these types of homosexuals had to be present in the world before the nineties, but they had not entered the publics mindset.  What this meant for society was that homosexuals could not be pained with the same brush of Gender.  A gay man or a gay woman was on a spectrum of gender and they were happy.  If you have ever been to a Pride festival you would see that they are more than happy they are ecstatic!  They were in the nineties relegated to the pervert side of society, still at that point, but they being on the fringe were able to express themselves as fully as possible.  Which is an over simplification, there were people within the fringe that thought otherwise but for most it was free.

Thank you Internet, providing information around the world and keeping it there for everyone who could get access.  Heterosexual people started to wake up and realize that they were they were not just their sex and they were more complicated.  But Gender Roles were very entrenched and society was not built for the Age of Information that we are in.  When I say the Roles were entrenched, I mean in our heads, but in practice they were being blurred.  More women were in the work force, the traditional purview of Men, more men were expected to help with every aspect of child raising, the traditional purview of Women.  The blurring of roles that started there continued to touch on every aspect of the roles of men and women, but without affecting our perceptions.  This actually affected Men more than Women.  In the Eighties and Nineties, there was a term for women that had entered the workforce, Super Moms.  Super Moms were women who were workplace professionals AND maintained their gender roles as well.  It was back in those years that it became impossible to raise a family with one income and things had to change.  So, women were ahead of the curve, their Gender identity changed first and gradually.

For men it was more of a shock.  Male values, that is Gender roles were still intact, at least in their mind or rather the mind of society.  Society heavily reinforced the Male Gender role.  The Internet showed us that we could be more.  We could be different from how we were raised to believe.  Men were spending more time single and more time engaging in traditional female roles like cooking and cleaning and liking them.  But there was a mental price, because they were raised to believe something different than they felt.  The question was, Can a man or a woman feel like the opposite and still be a man or a woman?  Enter the Miracles of Medical Science, they finally figured out how to make a woman a man and a man a woman, at least on the superficial appearance side of things, well actually they can go as far as hormone treatment but not as far as reproduction.  Before that men and women had to just dress according to their preferred gender, but now they can get their gender reassigned.  Which did nothing to solve the problem.  The problem is that Gender is not a polarity, it is a spectrum.

Well that last statement is untrue.  Gender is not a spectrum, it is artificial, and therefore should not be expressed as with polarity, but as a rainbow.  If you like doing things on the left side it does not mean you are left handed and if you like doing stuff on the right side you are not necessarily right handed.  Why should gender be this way?  Why is it that when men become Transgendered, they are more likely to also become Lesbians too?  It is quite simple, their gender and their Sex and their Sexuality are not in sync.  Do they need to be?  Our society is changing to rapidly for our brains to adapt, because our children are raised by parents thirty years older than them, there is a lag in how people are raised and what they are raised to accept.  Hopefully this will only be temporary.

I heard about I child many years ago, well about three years ago, named Archer.  It was born to parents of an experimental mindset.  They had experimented on there previous two children trying to raise them free of influence of society.  For there third child they decided to go all out and not reveal its gender to anyone but the nuclear family he is genderless.  Why would anyone want to do something like that?

Colours.  There are certain colours that are girls colours and boy colours, but they are just colours.  Again this comes from society and the Sexuality of Gender.  Gay men are aloud to wear female colours, thank you Hitler.  Really, everyone has heard that he put homosexuals in concentration camps and identified them with pink stars.  Pink before that time was considered a masculine colour be cause you had to be brave to wear it, because it was so strong.  Really, white people can't wear a few colours, and really pink is one of them, we just don't have the skin tones to pull it off, but brown skinned people look awesome in hot pink.  But I digress.  Girls diapers, boys diapers with different colours, but not an effectively different shape, I know that they have different placement of absorbency strips, but that is it.  Blue is masculine pink is feminine but really there is no real difference.  Are animals feminine? Truck pictures are masculine?

Toys are the big ones.  What children play with might influence what they do in life.  Girls get dolls, boys get trucks.  Boys get toys with moving parts girls get toys that are soft.  What the Fuck!?!  Seriously.  Boys get Lego, luckily girls can have Lego too now, it is in all those softer colours and all those plans that girls would like, horses and dollhouses and settings to play doll house around.  Boy Lego sets have Star Wars and Battle Cats and the like.  When you look at a toy catalogue you don't see it, but it is there, well you don't see it until you see the Swedish Toy Catalogue of 2013.  Where ever there was a boy or a girl in a traditional picture, they reversed the sex of the model.  It was then that people noticed how toys were marketed for the different sexes.

Boy toys that were being played with had both boys and girls, traditionally the boys would be playing with the toys and the girls would be watching the boys playing with the toys.  That was just an example of the subtle manipulation of the masses and our imposed gender roles.  Movies are also bad.  I have friend who has two children, one of each sex, and they took me with them when they went to the movies.  The girl was three years younger and the the boy had to go and see the princess movie, which he liked, but had to complain constantly thought the entire movie, because it was about princesses.  Girl movies aimed at girls, television shows aimed at girls are the same too.  Boys programming is centered around action and fighting.  It is funny, in a way because young children's programming is not divergent yet and it contains action and problem solving as well as caring motifs.  It is like when they hit a certain age they can be marketed to and the sexes are streamed.

So the idea of those parents was to raise a child that was not influenced by factors that every other child is influenced by.  They decided that when people came by they had to give the baby gifts when it was born and those special days they had to do it without knowing its gender, dolls and trucks, Lego and Dollhouses, pink and blue, princesses and squirt guns.  What would I have been like if I was exposed to no gender at all, would I have liked trains as a child?  How would you have been different?

Perhaps one day everyone will grow up like Baby Archer able to make their own choices about what they like free of society's preconceived notions.  One day perhaps, but not this day.  If a child were to have a genderless upbringing it would end when they went to school and were pushed to conform, because that is where a lot of conformity still happens.  


If there was one thing I were to add to the list of factors that affect our inherent sexual identity it would be something like an Exclusivity spectrum.  I would say that an exclusivity index would have a strong genetic and evolutionary pressure.  Women, tend to be exclusive and men tend to be inclusive.  Tend is a loaded word.  There would be strong evolutionary pressure for a woman to be exclusive, in appearance anyways, to be exclusive, so that their 'mate' would stick around to raise his offspring, but there would be another pressure for a female to mate with stronger males and keep the steady provider to provide stability.  On the other hand, given that males do not bear children and thus have no resources tied up for years at a time, it is in their best interest to spread the genetic material around to as many recipients as possible, but there is also strong evolutionary pressure to mate exclusively so that they can keep a make sure that their genetic material reaches sexual maturity.  So this thought process provides a strong case for both men and women being anywhere on a spectrum of exclusivity.

Modern birth control has stepped this up a bit, allowing both partners the chance to wander sexually and still keep e same mate partner.  So I suggest that we are all a range between exclusive and not exclusive.  Certainly younger people are less exclusive than older people, but there is a range there as well.  Socially it should be noted that there are social pushes on exclusivity behaviour and sadly the pressures are unbalanced by sex.  For example, males are lauded for multiple partners, called 'studs' and females are called 'sluts' for engaging in equal behaviours.  One is positive and the other is negative.  I do not think this is right, but society does.  This means that aberrant sexual behaviour must occur in the shadows of society.  Like Swingers, partners that engage in non-procreational sex with multiple partners.  Adultery, one partner engaging in sex with someone outside a partnership.  In some cultures this includes premarital sex.

I believe that the way the world should work is that of these spectrums and polarities, that only one that is set in stone is the sex that you were born with, it can be changed but if the other spectrums were meaningless so would the need for the change.  

For those that really know me, I don't need to put myself on these scales, but for those that know me, but not that well, or don't know me at all here is where I fit: Male, Heterosexual with very slight Bisexual tendencies, gendered probably about half way between men and women, but more on the male side and I am 100% monogamous, but utterly completely open to all variations in a partner and not in any way discriminatory towards any combination.  Got it?

As always comments welcome privately or here, and you can comment and request I delete as well, after all, society is not ready for us as we are in reality. 

Friday, 4 April 2014

Drama Queen

I was just talking to a friend, WaifGirl, about the worst type of people in the world.  There are two there are the Passive-Aggressive people and there are the Drama Queens.  

Passive-Agressive, have to be the worst, because they constantly acquiesce to every suggestion that you make or a good number of them but then turn around and do what they want to do.  They won't tell you this and they won't let you know that they don't agree with you, but they will willingly agree to it and seem to participate only not follow through.  It is important to identify these people right away, as they will hurt you.  If you get involved with them there are two strategies, one let them dominate, then you know what they want and don't want and are thus not surprised by them.  And two, suffer.  If you yourself are just passive you can have a relationship with them, if you have a back bone and your goals are different from them, get away from them.  When I say relationship, I mean any type, friends or more than friends, they are all relationships.

The second type are Drama Queens.  They are easier to identify, once you experience them, so there fore easier to avoid any type of relationship with them.  First off they come as both male and female and the use of the honorific 'Queen' is derogatory and sexist, but is used in conjunction with 'Drama' and then becomes like the word 'Blonde', which people who have yellow hair find offensive, but the term 'blonde' is less offensive than 'Air Head'.

Drama Queen-is the combination of two personality traits to make one horrible personality.  They are all Extraverts.  This is not a bad personality type, it is just a necessary part of the equation, you can't have a drama queen unless they are in your face.  They are all selfish.  It should be said that everyone is selfish and very few people are completely selfless, selfless people tend to have short life expectancies; they tend to give of themselves until they die, so a little selfishness is necessary to keep yourself alive, but there is selfishness and Selfishness.  Drama queens rarely think of anyone but themselves and they lead poor lives.  It should be noted that they live the same type of life that other people do, it is just that they see it as if the Entire World is against them and not as it is in reality that the Entire World has not noticed you and never will.

Things happen, but to a drama queen things happen to them and they can't wait to tell you this, because they need to be the center of attention.  Thinking like a typical introvert, I see that if I had been an extravert, I would have been a drama queen, well could have.  You see I am trying to figure out why people are drama queens and I am looking at the histories of the Drama Queens I have known and at my life history, the only life history I really know—see typical introvert.  Trauma is the cause, specifically feelings of abandonment.  Eldest children would most likely then be drama queens.  They were abandoned as children for the younger more needy sibling and sought there attention any way they could.  I imagine that age difference is a factor, small age differences and large age differences between children make less drama queens.  But siblings can't just be the answer, the world would be filled with drama queens if it were so, mind you there is a lot of them out there, so there can't be too many more factors.  

It is about what personality traits are part of your nature, genetics, or nurture, those that were learned from your environment.  About 75% of all people are Extraverts and the rest are introverts, given that split I would have to assume that that trait is genetic, 3:1 being a perfect simple genetic ratio, but there could be other factors, but I don't know what they might be, so it is easier to focus on the nurture side of things.

Perhaps abandonment issues are more pronounced in a drama queen's life history.  Favourtism of a younger child by parents might be a factor if there are only two children, one child feels ignored, not just because all the attention is focused on the younger child, but because the younger child is receiving different attention as well.  I have to be careful here as my I am wearing Autism coloured glasses, so I have to separate it out.  My mother wanted a girl.  She had plans for a girl that she did not have for a boy.  I am a boy, I was the boy and my sister was the girl, obviously, but more she was the answer to my mom's desires.  She made my sister dolls, with clothing to match, and when she got older she made my sister dresses, lots of dresses.  To be fair, she made me a few stuffed animals and one Greenpsychopomp doll with not quite matching hair colour, but from the start it was all about her.  Later that changed, especially when my autism started to become prominent, but also truthfully there was still difference in how we were treated.  Despite this extended paragraph about me, and that I have started talking about me and have turned the conversation to me, I am not a Drama Queen, because I am too introverted, but that is how a true DQ would do it.

I have an autistic friend though, and I see many of the traits that are associated with DQs in him and me.  When people are talking about something that happened to them in the presence of a DQ, the DQ will make the conversation about them.  I used to do it a lot, but I learned not to, however, in my head sometimes I am shouting to make it about me still.  May that is what you do too?  

There must be some other trait that makes a Drama Queen.  I have noticed a correlation of a few things, but correlation does not equal causation.  Social trauma as mentioned before.  People are all unique individuals and they react differently to the same stimulus and their parents teach them uniquely differently based on them and their other children and what they are experiencing in life at the time, as a math sentence it would look like this: unique x unique (or unique squared if there are two parents) x unique.  Simply saying some people react one way when another in e opposite way.  Trauma can therefore be severe or negligible depending on the person.

I had a friend Sheryl, whom I loved unrequitedly, a Drama Queen, if I could admit it to myself.  I know her history as much as she told me, in details that are not necessary here.  She might have become a drama queen because of one or two events in her life, being told that she was a love child and that she had another family, and she was e only girl of both families and thus special.  She was also molested by one of these people.  There is a lot of trauma in there and there is a lot of other people treating her extra specially.  I can't say if either had a hand or none.

Another girl I knew had a mother who had addiction problems when she was young and moved out in her small teens to live on her own, she pulled herself up out of some major shit, but she is a drama queen too.  I don't know whether being a DQ is a survival technique that allows people to pull through bad shit or if it is damage that shows up like a scar on a personality.  Maybe both.  I do know that Drama Queens can still be good people, that you can love them as good people.  I think it is possible to cure them, but extremely difficult to do because they are Drama Queens.  Sometimes it is just better to let them go.

•You might be a DQ if you need to be the center of attention so much that if some one mentions that their mother just died you find yourself talking about your aunt that died when you were six, dominating the conversation.

•You might be a DQ if you walk into a room where there is an active conversation occurring and since it is not about you, you start a new conversation with one of the participants

•You might be a DQ if bad stuff seems to happen to you all the time and you need to tell everyone about it.  Even the good things in your life have bad elements and you need to tell people how horrible your life is.

•You might be a DQ if you feel people are slighting you for no reason all the time because they are not talking to you or not smiling or not saying nice things about you.  

•You might be a DQ if you feel that when people give you a little advice, job direction, tell you to stop doing something, that they are criticizing you overly harshly and and now would be a good time to a) cry, b) mope, c) tell the boss that you are not being treated fairly by your coworkers, d) stir up trouble with other people, e) try to be friends with someone who actually was treating you badly, because acting nice with someone only makes things worse and deep down inside, worse means that you were right and the world has it in for you.

Thursday, 3 April 2014

Slave States part Five, Exalted campaign

I delayed writing up the adventure that my friend had for a while for no good reason.  If I had done it sooner, it would likely would have been better.  

All good plans go to shit as quickly as they meet the character, but with only one player, they can go even faster or not at all; if depends how well you know your player.  My story plan went awry not because I did not anticipate the direction that he want to go, but because of his charm selection, the magical powers of Exalted, he had, but also his mundane weapons that he was using, but forgot to tell me.  But really, it was my error because I did not anticipate it, because it was obvious.  I chose an nemesis and gave him armour that would prolong the fight, so that it would be a contest.  He chose target arrows as his arrow.  There are four arrow types to chose from, the most common type are normal leaf shaped arrow head, they cause 2 lethal base damage, frog crotch arrows, designed to cut straps and such do almost no damage to armored foes, but do 4 lethal damage to unarmoured foes.   Signal arrows make a sound when fired, but have a fragile head and so do very little damage, unless fitted with an oiled rag and lit.  Target arrows, the kind you use for target practice, punch right through armour, halving the effectiveness of it, but only cause 1 lethal damage.  This was the type of arrow that my friend chose, which meant that his foe was not as effective as he should have been.  

But I get ahead of myself, when last we left off, the Nameless, was fretting because he was late to the party and the Dragon Blooded target had left already.  Sucks to be late.  Not a real problem for a supernatural tracker, but a real problem if you don't have those charms.  In Exalted there are five sets of skills, five in each set.  A solar exalt has one set of skills that he is better in than the rest, he also has an additional five skills that he is also good at spread between the other four sets.  The Nameless is a Night caste, so he has all the Night skills, Athletics, Awareness, Dodge, Larceny and Stealth and five other skills, Archery, Martial Arts, War, Presence, and Investigation.  A normal human would have about three skills that are easy for her to use and Dragon Blooded have eight.  In Exalted, charm trees are linked to skills, so you can have Archery charms, charms that augment archery skill.  And there are between five and fifteen charms in each tree, some charm trees have a lot more like Martial Arts, because these charms are linked to specific fighting styles and there are many of these.  

All charms have prerequisites of skill and magical potency, you need to have both prerequisite to get the charm and any prerequisite charm in the tree.  The Favoured abilities of the character are easier for him to learn, and the other skills more difficult.  The corresponding charms are also easier to learn, if they are favoured too.  So what this means is that the starting favoured abilities that a character chooses, have a lasting impact on the story.  I bet my friend wished that he had chosen Languages as a favoured skill, because to be effective in his quest, he as set to learning five additional languages other than his own, and that will mean a long time and a lot of experience.  He might also want to pick up an additional charm in language too.  Each character when it is made has a limited number of skill dots and charms to select, the rest have to be gained from experience.  Such is life.

Ragara Dinyacout did not begin in the Capitol of Serrat, but in the out reaches in a tertiary center and so when his opportunity to make his fortune, it was there that he had his small power base.  It was also ideally placed to allow him to act without eyes of the other Dynasts on him.  The Nameless did not have this information and all the other Dragon Blooded were based inside the capitol cities, so it was a logical place to start looking.  He asked a few questions of the bureaucrats in Serrat, the city, and was given very general information, since no one knew any information.  He was given enough information to start his investigation, Dinyacout was based in a small city in the north, but would soon be coming to live in the Capitol.  

The journey to the smallest, further most town of the province was normally a three day journey on horseback, but the Nameless made it there in a day and a half on foot; he ran through the night.  When he arrived in the Dinyacout's home base he discovered that he had set out for one of his most northerly latifundia, three days ago.  Finding the address and starting out as fast as he could manage he made it to the location before his quarry had left.  The Dynast had taken his time, doing a cursory tour of the region.  When he had arrived in the Latifundia, Dinyacout was set up in a fallow field on the north side of the compound near the wall.  There was a large pavilion style tent and a small group of canvas leantos nearby.  The Nameless counted quickly, a fang of Legionaries (5) and a fang of slave troops, fifteen collared and chained slaves, three slave servants for the Dynast, lastly one Dynast dressed in Black Jade reinforced breastplate.

Dragon Blooded's Magical Material is Jade.  There are five different aspects of Terrestrial Exalted and in this fantasy world there are six different colours of Jade, so each aspect of Dragon Blooded has a different colour of jade as a magical material, and the others are not magical to them.  This seems like a disadvantage, but it still makes it the most common magical material.  Air aspect have Blue jade, Earth aspects have White jade, Fire aspects have Red jade, Water aspects have Black jade and Wood aspects have Green jade.  Jade is just a special kind of rock when it comes down to it and is not very appropriate for making weapons or armour.  They get around this by making a jade-steel alloy which allows them to make the jade into things.  The properties of magical materials are similar but not universal, the first similarity between all magical materials is when the appropriate exalt has attuned to the artifact, it is weightless, well effectively.  This allows the armour to be thicker and the weapons to be bigger and cause more damage and there is nothing more cool than dressing up in armour as thick as a tank's carrying a sword as thick as a person and six feet long with one hand!  

Other exalted have different magical materials: Solars have Orichalcum, which is the essence of gold, Lunars have Moonsilver, which is the essence of silver smelted by the light of the moon, Sidereals have Star Metal, which is obviously meteor metal, but less obvious because it is really the essence of dead gods, that is super rare.  In comparison, Jade is as common as dirt.

The Nameless approached along the wall so that he was hidden from view so that he could count the total numbers of his enemy.  While he was watching Ragara Dinyacout exited his pavilion and started across the one of his servants. He stopped and looked over his shoulder as if aware that he was being watched.  One of the charms that Dinyacout had is one that can tell him when someone is watching him.  It does not tell him the direction or the location of the watcher, but it can make him paranoid.  Typically Terrestrial Charms are weaker than every other type of exalt, but there is a cooperative nature to a lot of the terrestrial charms, but alas for Dinyacout he is alone.  Lunar charms tend to be physical in nature, they feed off Attributes instead of Abilities.  Sidereal charms are limited in scope but tend to follow a celestial story, a constellation.  Solar charms tend to be about perfection and are not limited in any way.

There are three components of being a good Game Master, well actually there are a lot more than that, but the three that I am going to talk about are: knowing the capabilities and possibilities of all the characters and non player characters, knowing how to express them without make it look like they are using their powers and the last is being able to fudge what you can't remember. My friend playing the Nameless is one of those people who has the first two down pat, I mean he hass all the character abilities and charms stored in his head in his nearly photographic memory, which I do not, but I am good in the last part, faking it.  I feel like the dumb one around my friends who play Exalted.

The Nameless stalked Ragara Dinyacout from a distance.  Quite near the pavilion on e wall that was an unexpected opening in the holly hedge.  In the opening was a door set into the wall, of relatively new construction.  Tired The Nameless elected to sleep and replenish himself after his long journey.  

The next morning, the pavilion and the tents were packed up and the convoy began its trip through the door in the wall.  When Dinyacout strode confidently from the his pavilion, the Nameless was watching and Dinyacout looked over his shoulder looking for the person that was watching him.  He then passed out of sight into the wilderness.  Approaching quietly and unseen, the Solar inspected the path that had been carved through e wilderness.  It had the appearance of a new path, the trees were all mature in size and the undergrowth next to the path still had not grown, but not so new that the stumps where trees were removed were still not fresh.  The path had been carved straight and nearly due north.  As such it was easy for him to keep pace with the convoy.

When night came, the crew passed close to a large clearing suitable for the pavilion and for tents of a group their size, cleared close to the ground and planted with wild flowers and grass.  The Nameless approached the clearing to see if he could hear anything of note from any of the conversations.  He spied Dinyacout and approached with all the stealth he had.  In Exalted terms, the player directs how the character uses charms, but from the point of the character's view they are doing it intuitively.  So the Nameless actually began to fade as my friend activated Easily Overlooked Presence and his Native Caste ability.  The charm does not make people invisible, but it does make observers overlook them easily, unless they are standing out in the crowd and by that we mean he is not attacking anyone or doing anything extremely conspicuous like juggling flaming torches in a paper factory.  His native ability causes shadows to lengthen and his person to fade relative to his background. The two together means that if he were in a paper factory juggling lit torches only the most actively searching person could spot him.  Sneaking up behind the Dynast netted a sudden movement from him and a quick order to double the watch and to increase patrols.  Dinyacout knew he was being watched, but not from where.  

From his point of view, Dinyacout thought it was an agent of his peers seeking to find out the secret of the location to his secret Artifact cache.  He thought that his unexpected promotion in the dregs of Serrat's powerful had merited him being followed and nothing more.  But his Solar Stalker did not know that.  
Realizing, though, that when ever he came close they were alerted to his presence, he kept his distance.

The journey north continued for a few days before the path made a fork, one path continuing north with the other heading to the east.  The Nameless was curious and after finding the next resting spot on the eastward path, he doubled back to investigate the north path.  It continued on for a few hours, but the forest around changed radically in that time and the summer temperatures deserted the air, after a time, he began to detect his breath in the air.  The wrongness of the area extended to the every aspect of the area, the trees were sickly, the air was cold with a touch of frost, despite the cloudless day, it was gloomy.  Everything was just wrong.  He back tracked and caught up to the caravan with nothing further going wrong or spooky.  

The journey ended after another few days at the base of a small rocky protuberance in the terrain with a small glacier at the base.  The tents and the pavilion was set up.

And then I did not write again for another week and my memory got worse

Ragara Dinyacout approached the glacier on his own and from his vantage point, the Nameless, saw two alien human like beings appear almost from nowhere and talk to the Dynastic Dragon Blood.  The Nameless overheard that the beings would recieve Dinyacout and his offering in one hour and that he had that time to prepare himself for the negotiations.  

Hearing this and seeing the two parties part and the one going to prepare while the other two disappearing as suddenly as they appeared, the lone Solar Exalt decided to investigate the pair.  Creeping closer to where the meeting occurred, the Nameless detected a faint shimmer to the air.  He pressed closer to it and passed thought the shimmer.  Befor him was no longer just glacier and a small mountain, but a shimmering glass Palace blue white in colour as if it were made of ice.  There was a tall wall at least twenty feet in height with crenellations and arrow slits all along the top there were towers dotted along the walls just a little taller.  Behind the wall was a low keep, still several stories tall with narrow towers at each corner and one slightly larger and much taller in the center, a top each tower was a blue pennant flying, snapping in the wind that appeared to come from the left.  The tower seemed to dwarf the glacier and the mountain, but when he approached he found that e reverse was true and the distance between where he first saw the castle, which appeared to be miles distant, was only a few hundred paces away in truth.  He entered through the main gate and secreted himself into the grand keep.

The main room was set up as a feast hall.  There was a large Dias with two thrones setup with a large table before it and a samaller chair along side it near the thrones.  Upon the main floor was a much larger bench piled with food of all types.  Indeed both tables were piled with foods but with differences, the one before the thrones was piled with quality and the other, reflecting the size of the table was piled with quantity.  There were great amounts of feast meats, fruits and cheeses.  There were piles of cakes drizzled with sauces, confectionaries covered with icings and candies spilling over plates.  There were small tuns of ales, casks of wines and flagons of spirits. There were fresh breads drenched in butter, fresh and steaming as if just pulled from ovens.  Despite himself the smells caused him to gaze and stare, his stomach turning sommersalts with anticipation.  He also noticed that there were only two possible exits besides the way he had come, a large set of curtains set behind the throne and a small disused door off to the side reinforced with tarnished bronze.  It was to this door that he was drawn.

With little trouble he opened the door and entered its dark confines quietly, shutting the door behind him, but keeping it slightly ajar to speed an exit and to keep that room under surveillance.  Once his eyes adjusted to the darkness within he discovered that he was not alone.  Off in the corner was a detected figure, regal in stature, but laid low by circumstances.  He was chained to the wall by his arms and to the floor by his legs with enough slack to allow him to sit or stand but little else. His clothes had the appearance of unrivaled finery that had seen better days and his flesh hung loosely upon his bones a sign of clear starvation.  His skin was marred from wounds and beatings that seem to have been frequently delivered upon him.  So great was the abuse that is was only when he spoke, that the Nameless realized that he was a she.  She spoke, "Greetings Prince of the Earth, forgive my present attire and circumstances, I would bow if I could and celebrate your arrival with the appropriate feast of greetings, if I were better able to.  I am called Stanza like a Summer Breeze that Harkens to the Winter to Come, but you may call me Stanza or Summer Breeze, or anything that you like, but I harken to you to help me out of my current dilemma!". Her voice was clear as a bell and rang clear as if through a cold winter day, and her voice sounded with chimes of glass. The room brightened when she spoke and seemed darker when she stopped.

The Nameless urged her to make it quick, as he was concerned not for her plight but only a way to free the slaves that were being sent here.  Stanza quickly saw that this was her chance to escape her predicament and put forward a possible alliance that might serve both their desires and goals.  She quickly told the Solar that about a century ago, as he knows time, she was journeying from Court to her Summer Palace, this very place, when her servants took her at unawares and imprisoned her here.  She told the Nameless hero, that is he could free her from her confinement, she would gladly punish and take her servants back and to punish them for their crimes to herself and to the mortals.  She also bargained that she would help him defeat his foes as well.  More precisely she stated that if she needed her help, he would owe her a favour to be collected upon in the future and if she needed his help, she would owe him another favour, besides the help that she would render him, that of ending the ravaging of the mortal souls here in this place forever.

The Nameless needed some explanation of things and she provided it an a brief and succinct manner that he desired, given the limited time he felt he had.  She told him that he had more time than he thought as there was a lot of ritual involved in negotiations and a lot of tempting of the Terrestrial Exalted into braking the covenant of the First Age.  Of which she did not give many details other than her former servants were trying to tempt Dinyacout into eating the food in the dining hall, all people who do so have forfeited their freedom forever.  As such, negotiations would continue for atleast two days.  She related to the Nameless that The Rakasha, as that is what they name themselves, find it difficult to find sustenance outside of the un formed Wyld and need something else to sustain themselves and to this end they are able to feed off the emotions of mortals.  The act of feeding renders them utterly emotionless and without drive or desires, essentially empty husks.

Appalled at this revelation, the Nameless agrees to help this Rakasha, if she will vacate this area and never come back, or in the least never engage in this practice on the slaves from these territories.  Stanza agrees to this condition and she begins to tell her new ally how to free her from captivity.  She tells him that at the center of this freehold there is ana object that anchors it to the land, called a Bonefire, it allows the Rakasha that control the Freehold to shape it as they desire and because they control it, they hold her prisoner and will be formidable opponents, but his he could extinguish this Bonefire, the Freehold would collapse and so would her servant's power over her.  He asks how he is sopposed to do that?  She continued that there is a pump near by that will provide water that will put out the metaphorical anchor.

Through the portal, the Nameless sees, Dinyacout and the slaves have arrived during the conversation with with Stanza.  The Realm soldiers are not present, but the slave soldiers are feasting on the banquet, unaware that they have just signed away their souls for the food; the slaves are chained off to the side and the Dynast is negotiating with his hosts, the traitorous Rakasha servants.  Activating Easily Overlooked Precesnce and his Caste powers he slips thought the door and seeks past the heated discussions, his presence and the presence of his Orichalcum Powerbow unnoticed.  

Beyond the curtains he encounters a set of wide bronze doors with a large ring set within it.  He reaches up to pull the door open.  Upon yanking on it, two eyes open with sudden surprise and a large mouth opens below and shrieks of pain and surprise.  The surprise is twofold, needless to say, when both recover and introduce themselves to each other and a conversation starts about the politeness of pulling on someone's nose, especially a sleeping person's nose.  The humourous conversation continues until the door is convinced that he should open, if not for him, then for it's original Mistress, who undoubtedly took much better care of her doors than the present interlopers.

The first encounter of the mission sets the tone for the remainder as many of the features of the vast ballroom appear sentient in one way or another.  Past the doors, that the Nameless promised would be better oiled on his return, he finds himself in a magnificent Ballroom far larger than the castle could have suggested it might have contained.  The large black and white checkerboard pattern on e floor seems to stretch the width of the floor, but it is not a bare floor, for towards the fore part of the dance floor there is a monumental pile of broken furniture of all types, beds and tables, chairs and candelabras.  Any fixture or furnishing that one might imagine is piled up here on the floor in broken shambles nearly thirty feet high, not quite as tall as the first balcony, of which there are three, each tall and grander than the one below it.  The light beyond the pile comes from great multi-tiered chandeliers filled with hundreds if not thousands of candles on each tier, but before the pile is a quaint place setting of two chairs set on one side of a marry crackling fire quite near to a small pond, fed from a stream on the opposite side from a stream coming from an overflow of a pump.  The Nameless feels that he has found the Pump and Bonefire.  He takes the bucket that Stanza provided him with, her slop pail within her cell, and fills it at the pump and brings it toward the fire.  He dumps it upon the fire to put it out, but it seemed too easy a task and indeed it was.  The Campfire screamed and dodged to the side at the last moment, narrowly avoiding certain death.  Realizing that this task was not to be so easy he rushed back and re-filled his magazine and brought it back to the Fire.  He cunningly feigned to the left of the fire and dumped the water on the right completely extinguishing the Fire.  To which the two chairs angrily inquired wht he had against their friend.  Whereupon he discovered that he had infact assaulted and murdered a complete innocent, that the Bonefire was on the other side of the pile of broken furniture.

On the other side he saw his mistake at once, the Bonefire was obvious, a bright irradecent bloom that feasted hungrily on large bones of some monstrous beast.  Not too far away ere was a small rusted pump with a large chain covering it and surrounded by a wall covered with sharp metal spikes.  Having learned from previous mistakes, he made a general inquiry if that was indeed the Bonefire and that that was the pump that pumped the means to quench it, to which suspiciously everyone present agreed, tables and chairs and ottomans, oh my!  When he finally managed to dowse the Bonefire the Freehold began to change much more rapidly than one would have guessed.

One moment there was a room as described before and the next he was out on the open standing on a glacial scree, a few dozen paces away from, and not hundreds of meters, Dinyacout, the two rebellious servants, five astonished slave soldiers and fifteen dazed and terrorized slaves, the many servants, the food and the walls all gone.  A dozen feet to the side stood Stanza resplendent in glass armour with a fell sword of the thinnest glass, standing a tall seven feet, hale in appearance and form.  She nodded her thanks to her savoir and raised her blade in challenge.  The Nameless fitted three arrows to his bow and drew back its string, three target arrows, and let them loose.  Three soldiers dropped a second later and the rest scattered in fear.  The next arrow skewered one of the rebels deep in its eye, killing it instantly as Stanza engaged the second in a duel of blades.  Dinyacout rushed forward drawing his blade intent on killing his foe, who obviously was the one who he knew was drooling his steps unseen for the past week.  The arrow was drawn, hand to ear and arrow tip touching the bow stave, fingers let go and arrow blooming with golden essence now speeding to target.

But arrows take seconds to kill things that take years to build, but sometimes it is important to see what those things are, since they are sometimes no different from you or me.  the Nameless has no incite to these things but certainly Dinyacout does.


Dynast Ragara Dinyacout.  Born into a lesser patrician household within the Realm, product of a brief affair between one young Dynastic youth, Dragon Blooded and a married patrician woman.  The affair, which was one sided, something that happens all to frequently in the Realm, but at least it was not rape, was always something of a sore point with his father, but that was that.  He was raised with love of both parents, the affair that troubled his father, was treated like a bad storm that had happened in the past, after all, you can't oppose Dragon Blooded, they are like the weather, something you just have to learn to live with.  

Esteguard Island is nominally part of the Eagle Prefecture.  There are no towns of note upon it and there is nothing of real note in the area other than a small grotto containing a few statues of First Age origin.  The grotto itself is off limits to the inhabitants and there is a commenorative statue to when the Empress once stood here nearly six hundred years previously.  The taxes are paid seasonally when one small boat arrives from the mainland on its circuit of the lesser islands on the coast.  Nothing ever happens here, well not since the Empress was last here.  In fact the only notable thing that has happened here is that nothing has ever happened here at all.

The island is about five standard miles across and almost eight long there is a small wood that has been been left to grow near the grotto, mostly to make the area more uninviting.  There are a few stands of bamboo that is used in home construction on the island, but this close to the main part of the Realm there are very few storms stronger than a gale.  The offshore fishing fleet consists of a couple boats and they catch all the fish that the seas can provide; the pickings are quite slim.  There are a few independent farms, but most of the food production is through the one large Patrician run farm complex.  The year round pleasant weather means that there is almost always a crop in the fields.  

There is a shrine to the Immaculate Order, but there is no full time priest.  It also serves as court for small disputes.  In addition to the Partician compound with common housing and field workers, there are four small freeholds, the descendants of Realm soldiers who served their time in the Legions years ago, but whose descendants had not lost the land because of its isolation.  

The are a few children in the area and because of the isolation and because there are so few here on this island, or low ranking patrician family and three other families with citizenship and children, they have hired a tutor to teach a few of the children.  Dinyacout has a couple siblings who are younger than him and there are three other children close to his age, that provide sparring companions and a bit of competition.  

RY696

Age 6 Eiji grandson of a citizen warrior smart, but not that smart.  His future will have a role in the bureaucracy of The Realm.

Age 10 Waku son of a non-citizen farmer of the village.  Smart and charismatic, the leader of the troop, a real free thinker.  has questioned the order of things openly with the tutor and has been rebuked.  Smart enough not to know not to do that again.  But still actively questions everything, when alone and with the troop. His future is bleak.  He is destined to pick up with his father an indentured farm worker for the Ragara Plantation, when he is old enough he enlists in the Realm Legions, is quickly promoted to Fang leader and then to Scale lord within a year, but dies in a senseless Dynast training manoever.

Age 8 Fukiko daughter of a citizen warrior. More the moral counterpart and opposite of Waku she believes deeply in the Immaculate Order of things and that people are born into the station that is best for them.  She receives extra tutoring from her father in the texts and is destined to initiate in the Immaculate Order where she will reach second coil after many years and a total lack of political connections.

Age 8 Born Ragara Ukita in RY688 to low level Patrician family, no exalted member in well over three hundred years.  The family has been administering this land or lands like it, on the periphery of society for two centuries and there is little likelihood that this will ever change.  All his peers know that he is going to be the Patrician one day and that this will never change.  They address him with proper titles when expected and treat him with deference, but when alone treat him as just one of them, which he really likes.  

Due to an incident when the tutor first arrived to teach the young Patrician where he took the largest portion of a meal for all, because of his station, Waku called him "din ya cowt" which in the local dialect means Greedy, but could mean "din ya coot" in High Realm as Lion's Share.  Ukita took the meaning as was intended, as a rebuke from an older boy.  That was two years ago and the entire group are friends for the two hours after common lessons ends and before private lessons in the afternoon.

In the mornings, the four students train in a martial art (that instills discipline), read the histories of the Realm and do sums and learn more advanced maths.  After all their morning activities, if the weather is nice they go out to explore, the weather has to be really bad for them to want not to do this.  Exploration, on this little island consists of mostly investigating on how things work in the community and noticing the little nuisances of the island.

 In the classroom, Ukita is the leader.  The private instruction and the increased expectations have shaped him to be better than the rest and truthfully, the others are there on his father's sufferance.  Waku, being the most common stock of all of them, knows that especially here, if he wants to continue attend classes, he must walk a fine line of aptitude and excellence; he does not want to appear to be better than Ukita and lose his chance to learn new things.

But, in the free time between morning class and afternoons, this is not so.  Loose in the fields and the forests Waku is the leader.  He is a natural leader, charismatic and wise beyond his years, with insight into how things work.  His afternoons are spent working in the fields alongside his family and the other labourer families, so this is his only time to shine.  

Fukiko and Eiji both receive additional instruction from their families in the afternoons.  Fukiko pours over the texts of the Immaculate Order, because her father believes that closely following a pious life allowed him to be favoured with a long career in the Legions, where many others had died.  Eiji is being groomed along with his older cousins and siblings for a life the opposite of his life, because of its many dangers and his own children's ineptitude with other things like managing his farm and the civil service.

The story picks up with my friend playing the role of Ragara Ukita, soon to be Ragara Dinyacout.  Class has just ended and the weather is pleasant, so the troop has decided to go out and explore.  The most popular destination is the forest and the Grotto therein facing out towards the Pole of Water and the deep ocean.  Waku, who at any other place or time would have been destined for a career where his sharp mind would have been put to better use, except that he had been born a virtual slave, posed a question to the group.  Why were the much older statues of the Anathema completely unblemished and looking just finished and the much younger Statue of the Empress was pitted and cracked.  He pointed out that the statue of the Empress was cared for while the anathema statues were not and had nearly constant deep water waves crashing against them.  

The children discussed this fact in length to the conclusion that the Anathema must have used their demonic powers to make the statues imperishable, except as Waku pointed then pointed out that the Dynasts could tame demons too, leading their thoughts that maybe the Anathema were better at mundane things like making statues, maybe all things were better once too.  The entire conversation bordered on Heresy, that the time before was better, but the thought was still there.  Only Waku, the one that with the least prospects in life, thoughts went there.  


The arrow launched unerringly towards Ragara Dinyacout and did not deviate.  The arrow pierced his armour and flared as bright as the Sun puncturing his chest and heart.  Summer Breeze that Harkens to the Winter to Come stepped in before Dinyacout could die and revived him, saying that this was an appropriate trophy for him to remember The Nameless' deeds and to show his fellows the remarkable alliance that she had forged with this nameless exalt.  The nameless devested the Dragon Blooded of his artifact sword

There was a brief clean-up the routed soldiers and the camp guards were killed to make the disappearance of the slaves, guards and Dynast complete.  But after that the journey that remained was the difficult one: getting just under a score of drug addled slaves away and back to his home base a journey of about a thousand kilometers.  The slaves themselves were grateful, the negotiations with the Fair Folk and Dinyacout was made in their presence and although none of them understood the actual words in the discussion, the intent was clear.  

The path back was initially easy, but when it turned south back into the Realm controlled lands, the Nameless decided that they would head cross country and make for home directly.  This was more difficult than expected.  After a few days of travel the land turned from light northern forest in to boggy heath and from there into true northern marsh, what trees that existed were sickly and mis-shapen.  Whether he knew it or not he had slowly stumbled into a large Shadowland.  Normal Shadowlands, places where the Underworld and the living world become one place, are populated by many ghosts during the night, but this one was more sinister and even the ghost feared to tread in its bounds.

Luckily they encountered an artifact from the First Age traveling westward.  It was the Legendary Holy Road from Wallport to Whitewall.  The road cut the Shadowland in half and it's route was firmly in creation.  The road is lit at night and warm throughout the winter and its stone surface is never in need of repair since its completion over two thousand years ago.  The danger with leaving Shadowlands is that exiting destinations are dependent on the time of day, leaving by day one enters Creation, entering at night leaves you in the Underworld.  None of them knew their peril, none of them found out; they left during the day.

The days were getting colder and the last few days were completed in the marsh so everyone was wet and suffering from exposure.  The warm stones though hard served as a better bed than any had had in years.  Their cloths dried and they were warm.  They traveled south from here to the city of Wallport on the coast.  

The Nameless contacted the Guild there and sought to sell the Artifact sword.  He did not know its true value, but he did know that a sword would not feed and clothe the slaves though the cold winter months to come.  The Guild gave the Nameless a talent of silver and four promissory notes for the same amount as well as clothing and supplies and transportation to the secret and already scouted out landing location nearest his home.  He also bought their silence with the promise of more artifacts to come.


The Nameless brought his charges to a base camp that he had scouted out in hopes of bringing in supplies and building future for his people.  He contacted Yemurdral in hopes that he had forfilled his part of the bargain, to contract some help to build a start for his dream to overthrow the Realm in the Slave States.  Yemurdral did not let him down.  He told the Nameless that there was a ship load of supplies with some expertise waiting for his return.  There was a ship with supplies, (axes, saws, winter clothing, winter provisions and more) along with a captain and ten oarsmen to bring the craft along the coast and inland as far as they could go.  

Elated by this development he had the boat moved to where he had stashed the freed slaves, at the camp that he established his first rescue, Egoj.  The nineteen freed slaves himself and the eleven hired hands headed to the area of the coast where the expedition was to start inland.

A deep bay was discovered that ended in a small river.  The river was small, it was little more than a creek and most of the people had to disembark and pull the boat up e river.  Not far up the river valley the the tidal creek ended at a mound of rock haphazardly piled across the valley floor, a small trickle of water spilled over the top.  This seemed to be the start of the overland journey, but upon reaching the top of the pile, a large deep lake was found on the other side; the rubble was a ruined dam that must have been built thousands of years ago.  

The boat was unpacked and hoisted over the rubble and into the lake.  The boat was reloaded and the group set off.  The lake was narrow and long, it filled up a large river valley.  Days later they finally ran around far to the north of the coast and in close proximity to where the Nameless wished to set up the camp. The freed slaves, the ship captain and the ten labourers set off into the wilds with the lone Exalted leading the way.  

When the correct valley was reached, following a stream from the river valley, the Nameless enquirer with the ship captain, Eiri Draq.  Eiri Draq was not always a ships captain, more precisely he was never actually a captain, but a Guild Caravan Master, someone familiar with the entire North and an expert of surviving winters in much harsher climates than where the Valley was, but since he did have these expertises, he would be able to help this small group and hopefully allow them to survive.  

When they arrived, Eiri stated that the group had only a short while before Winter would set in and there was a lot of work to do.  Set up a habitation, set up latrines, setup work houses.  The Nameless had bigger plans, he wished to setup a society, but the village and the Winter would have to come first.  The work had to begin right away with no rest.  

As it was Winter came earlier than expected, but the first Longhouse had just been completed, although the insulation was not complete and there were lots of holes that needed to be filled  to make the room cozy.  The walls were woven, smaller trees and branches woven through posts set into the ground, the weave hammered tightly in place.  Eiri would have preferred a double wall, but given the time, he set a goal of a single wall and hoped it would be enough.  The walls met at the top where there was an opening for smoke.  A second barrier was created when the outside of the wall was covered with the canvas from the tents.  A large pit was built so that during the winter, so loggers might saw boards and cut wood from trees felled through the cold months.  "Logging is easier to perform," Eiri explained, "as it is easier to move large logs along snow and ice than along the ground."  Winter did see a lot of construction materials get built for the warmer seasons.

The Nameless took this time to try to get to know the people that he saved, who they were and what they did prior to 'joining' his merry band.  There were nineteen in all:

Shuìjiào, a native from An Teng, was not a typical slave from the Slave states; she was an import,  a bed slave.  Actually she was more of a proffessional Courtesian than a slave, an owned one.  She had been raised to serve Dragon Blooded and knew of no other profession, but she was quick witted and was blessed with high potential.  Trained in esoteric arts like e Tea Ceremony, massage, penmanship, poetry and in the arts of the pillow, she was many things.  She was also a cunning linguist, speaking her native Firespeak., Realm common and Riverspeak.  In addition to her bridled wit, demure beauty, she was trained in seduction and seduced the hardened Solar Exalt.

Pǎo, also an An Teng native, was Dinyacout's personal chef, a role that he continued with the crew.

Xueyou  assisted Dinyacout with dressing armour and acted as his servant he was an indentured slave from the Realm proper.  He was pleased that he was freed and wished to serve the Nameless however he wished him to.  There was more than a suggestion that Dinyacout used him as a bed slave too.

Nukkua was a blacksmith in his old life, but only speaks Woodspeak.

Jäger was an ex slave soldier who tried to run when he was given a chance.  Seeing his training and discipline and being a person who chose to try to run, even though he was given a position of power over other slaves, the Nameless promoted him to Sherif when he himself would be absent in the future. He only spoke Riverspeak.

Bhāgō was a woodworker before she was sent along with Dinyacout.  She only speaks Firespeak, but was given prominence because she could direct people on how to work wood.

Coenhelm was a man whose profession was of little use in the wild, a paper maker.  He spoke only  Realm Common.

Takara spoke Riverspeak and like many from this group, he was a bureaucrat.

Yoshimochi was a runner messanger when she was a slave, she spoke only Woodspeak.

Dhu'āmeh spoke Firespeak and she too was a runner messenger.

Chīfàn spoke Firespeak and she worked refining the purity of drugs as a slave.

As did Leofstan, but he only spoke Woodspeak. 

And Apik who spoke Waterspeak to make it by in her life.

Aethelfrith was a bureaucrat who only spoke Realm Common, in his former life.

As was Guotin but only spoke Realm Common.

Machi spoke Waterspeak and he smelted iron for work.

There were some hidden treasures in the lot though, Venandi a man who spoke Riverspeak, Realm Common, Firespeak and Waterspeak.

And Intuthu a woman who spoke Waterspeak, Realm Common, Woodspeak and Riverspeak.  Both were responsible for translating disparate reports into Realm Common for filing to the Realm.


After getting to know them a little bit he decided that the bunch of them needed a few laws to govern there actions, so that they knew they could not do anything that they wanted.  The most basic of laws that they do not do harm to one another, and he hoped that that would be enough.


Contextual Recognition Software

So you are walking down the street or perhaps shopping in the local grocery store and you see me come walk by.  I look you in the face and walk by without saying, "Hi."  I might not have recognized you.  Starch that, I did not recognize you.  Perhaps we met and talked a few times, I might even know your name.  Did we talk at my work place or at yours?  Did you have a bicycle helmet on at the time?  We're you wearing something completely different?  These little things might mean all the difference to as why I did not see you.

When I think about it my 'Contextual Recognition Software' package is constantly operating and I see people all the time, in their context.  There are the regular cashiers at the grocery store, there are people roaming the neighbourhood streets constantly, there are the regular customers at work and the regular people in the stores I frequent.  There are the regular people whom I ride my bike with in the evenings, but all these people I recognize regularly are in a certain context; if I meet them out of context, I might walk right by them without seeing them, because I don't.

It is most definitely an aspect of my Autism.  I expect things in their place and I am bothered when they are not, this is a thing I have seen in all Autistic people, why should I be any different.  I don't get as bothered and I have learned to adjust, but when I a walking down the street and I am not expecting to see you, I won't.  

I only recently became aware of the problem.  I thought for years that I had a problem with remembering people's faces and their names so I picked up the habit of greeting everyone with a nod if I thought they recognized me.  If they were not looking at me just in my general direction, a nod would be ignored as an inconsistency.  Sometimes if I do recognize someone I wait for them to announce their recognition, because that is what I prefer.  

I noticed last year that I would be talking to someone I had met a few days ago on a bike ride and not know who they were or where I had met them leading to some embarrassing conversations, which I constantly play back in my head, because one time embarrassment is not as nice as constant embarrassment.  

After that one time, I have started to notice many other instances of similar failed recognitions and I then tried to figure out what was different about the encounter.  There is not other way to understand it other than failing to recognize people out of the context that I meet them in.  It bothers me but I don't see a fix for me anytime soon.