Thursday, 26 September 2013

God tells me what to do

"It is up to God," she said, "If god wants it to happen it will."  With that statement she gave up all control.  I don't understand how people, mostly women, can do that.  It is the largest form of passivity and laziness I have ever encountered, even more passive than More Passive Than Rain, my Ex-something-whatever.  Shall I call them More Passive Than More Passive Than Rain?—MPTMPTR?

If I am fired from this job, it is God's will.  If I get pregnant it is God's will.  If God thinks my boyfriend is a dick, He will change it for me, if He doesn't, obviously God wants me to be with him even though he beats me every night!  

I really have to find a couple of these women and convince them it is God's will that they have sex with me, together, every night until I accept God in my life, which will be never, especially after encountering such weak willed women.

Take charge of your life, Woman!  Stop drifting.  No, you can't control everything in your life, but you can control somethings, like your body.  You can make an effort to show up on time, that might save your job.  You can use pregnancy protection to choose when you have children.  If you have dreams of traveling, guess what, you can't travel very easily with a kid, so use protection until you figure out where you can go.  Think your boyfriend is an ass, but you don't use protection?  Good way to be forced into marriage because you need help to support your new baby, with that ass of a boyfriend.

You won't test your God's desire to keep you alive by walking through a minefield or by playing Russian Roulette, but everything else is on the table.  Please go get pregnant and have your child, by God's will.  It is God's will that I pollute the Gene Pool with my Stupid Genes.  It is God's will that I pollute the environment, because if He did not will it, he would not have made it pollution!

Do you think I am taking the analogy too far?  Just change the nouns around and you will see it is the same God's Approves Argument.

Sunday, 22 September 2013

Exalted storyline plot ideas part three

Exalted storyline

Slave States

Nameless wishes to destroy them, but will he accept any ally to do so?  Some allies are even worse than others.  The Guild is a multi-faceted organization with many goals, not all parts talk to each other.  The Guild is interested in the slave states as a place to sell their drugs, but a different faction has other goals.

One state was contacted after a troubling rebellion with a proposition to rid itself of the trouble making population.  The regional Governor jumped at the chance and sold off the trouble makers, instantly lowering the chance of future rebellions, quelling future decent.  The new slave traders, received the slaves at a reduced rate and took them out of country.  They took them to a local Fair Folk community where they sold them for Glamour products.  The Fair folk drained the rebellious slaves of all emotion and personality, it nourished them.  The zombie like slaves were returned to the slavers who in turn sold them as new docile slaves to new markets.

But the regional Governor requested replacement slaves because the productivity of the region had dropped and quotas were being missed.  He repurchased some of the drained slaves, placing them among former friends and co-slaves, as a warning of what happens to rebels.  The new slaves worked as well as the drugged populous, but without the need of drugs, so they were much more profitable, even though they cost more to buy back.

The Governor meticulously went through the records looking for villages where more dissent was coming from as opposed to the background population and rebellious slaves from those regions were removed sold to be processed and repurchased back and placed with their original populations.  Those populations he noticed had much lower than baseline rebelliousness and much higher production rates.  His successes in increasing production and decreasing rebelliousness were noted and he received an immediate promotion to the office of the Satrap, which afforded him more comforts and luxuries, but also more pressure to succeed too.

He bribed members of the Guild to find out how the slaves were being processed and tried to recreate it on his own, so that he could get all the profit himself.  The Guild used a distant Fair Folk Holding, so that the source of the slave meals would not be easily found by the Fair Folk, the process of greeting the Entities in question was ritualized to prevent accidents in a story like motif, the acquisition of Glamour goods was made to seem as inconsequential to the Fair Folk and the reacquisition of the hulled out slaves had other additional ritual story elements.  None of which the Satrapy Official ever learned of.  His initial dealings were with a local Entity, when he brought the slaves he bargained directly with the Fair Folk Noble and in addition to the Slaves, most of the guards and his personal retainers were hulled out as well.  The Fair Folk noble sent his warriors into the surrounding area to gather up more "food" and the Official had to call in the Wyld Hunt to repel the incursion, still he found it most profitable.

                               …

The story as it relates to The Nameless is that he unknowingly got in contact with the secretive arm of the guild that started the trade in hulled out people.  That is he contacted a group that unknowingly works for a group that reports to the Guild department that deals in Glamour objects.  The group he contacted is seeking information on slave rebellions in his Satrapy.  It works quite closely with the slave hunters and is quite interested infiltrating the Realm's bureaucracy in the three Satrapies where they do not have an unofficial presence.  Looking for contacts who might be interested in selling rebellious slaves.  As per the original contact, they are not really interested in repeating the mistakes of the first Satrapy by reselling the hulled out slaves back to the Realm.  

The entire setup of this group has a deep story that they are funded by a former slave turned trader who became fabulously wealthy, but then used his wealth to buy slaves to recruit them into his organization where they could toil for their freedom.  He sees the Slave States as a blight on the landscape that needs to be purged and before his death sought to undermine it.  

This story is utter garbage.  The information funneled through these shell companies filters to the Guild through a few backward channels.  The shell companies are funded by a portion of the proceeds of drug sales by the Guild, whose department leader is reimbursed double by the Guild leaders.  This allows  some plausible deniability should the secret motivations be discovered by anyone.  The Guild as a company has survived hundreds of years by being very careful.  

When the motivation of the group is scrutinized by the Nameless, there will appear to be something worth digging into, the deeper motivations of the people involved should come under scrutiny, but eventually under this intense scrutiny, the "Truth" of the organization will be revealed.  The players will then be working with the Nameless to free the slaves from the Realm.  The freed slaves will be sent to colonies where they will work off the expense of freeing them and then their labour will be their own.  That is what this group is told, so they believe it.  When the strength of his true power is discovered, actual colonies will be set up for visiting if he desires, but most of the freed slaves are destined to be hulled out by Fair Folk and resold in distant markets.

If he should get suspicious, he will be lead to the official who is selling off slaves directly to the Fae.  The records, his own records were doctored by him to appear to be his own idea, and thus all his credit.  The Guild knows the value of having loose ends to feed to the wolves.

The beauty of this story line is that it feeds into his own goals, has the appearance of meeting his personal desires.  It exposes some troubling bumps that makes it all the more believable and delivers the ultimate 'Fuck-You' statement of the tragedy that he consigned thousands to be hulled out personally, that not every enemy of my enemy is my friend.

This plot is overarching and if played right could have a year or more of role-playing before the tragedy plays out to the end.

Subplots: The Satrap Official selling people to the Fae.
The Fae itself enlisting the Solar for story play excitement
The other Satrapies enlisting the slaves for freedom
Encounters with the various Deathlords attempting to persuade him
Encounters in Marsama's Fell.
The other Bloody Hands, inspired by him other slave rebellions
Destroying the Jackals trying to disrupt his plans
The Wyld Hunt
The hulled out slaves
The colonies
The colonies destroyed by pirates and raiders, Lintha?
A Fae attack on a colony leaving the population hulled out.
Into the Realm
More and more and more 
lunar mate add in

Now I just need to get a couple hundred names with personalities and motivations with short exploitable histories

Thursday, 19 September 2013

Superman is pregnant

You see I tend to obsess about things for a long time and generally it gets out of hand and then very bad.  But with relationships, there is a block that I have developed; a very useful and troubling.  If I am  infatuated with someone I will often obsess about them quietly when they are single, but when they are not single, my infatuation disappears.  When they are single again, e infatuation returns unabated.  Great and not so great.

My infatuation with Seventh is slowly going away, because she is in a relationship.  But also because I wanted it to go this way when I first started falling in love with her, or the idea of her.  The problem was that everything I wanted to do was legal, according to the law, but I initially knew that the mind of a child does not make mature decisions and I told myself that I could not take advantage her poor decision capacity.  It was one of the reasons that I avoided going back to the Big Smoke after I went finished school.  If you think you will succumb to temptation, remove yourself from the situation.  That was my original thoughts.

But my thoughts became corrupted.  When I came back into her life, she had changed, as I originally hoped she would, which is a half truth; I also hoped that she would not change.  It would have been nice if there was someone who loved me back.  But I should not be upset that she has made her own choices.  I think this might be how a parent sees their child who is making their own choices, but the wrong choices.  

Seventh called me again, after I had made these series of realizations.  She told me that she thinks she is pregnant.  Thanks to my personal abuse at the hands on MPTR, where I paid for a four week course for her birthing class, Hypno-Birthing, I have a lot of information to help her with.  I can help make her pregnancy better than she would have if she had no help.  Enter my Superman complex.  I will leap over tall buildings to help my friend, who I am in love with, with her child with another man.  Clearly I am fucked in the head.

When I hear about a mass murder or a large accident, I secretly wish I was one of the dead.

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

Phone calls bring good news

I was writing about a garden, but I decided to stop that because Seventh called me.  Nothing like a phone call from Seventh to cheer me up.  How I love her, which is why every time I talk to her I am melancholy afterwards.  We talked for an hour.  She called me because she did not want me to think that she only calls when she might need help.  I walked home, gave a man directions to the beer store, closed up the shop, took my washing off the line, not in that order all while talking to her.  

Part of the conversation was about memories, some false some real.  It was about giving advice.  It was about catching up and moving to a greater distance.  It was about her giving up on reality and retreating to a smaller more narrow part of it.  It was about what could have been if I were not as moral as I am, it was about as good as my life could have been if I grabbed what I wanted and did not accept no.

I am not that person, so I would never do that.  

I made her laugh, I taught her stuff she never knew and I told her things that would make her life easier while at the same time as make her less dependent on me, something I do not want.  I want her to depend on me.  But I think that would be amoral too, so I did not do that.  So you see my depression widens, I do the right thing and the right thing makes me unhappier.  

She is trying to get pregnant with her friend, boy friend, who lives a thousand kilometers away.  She is not trying to get pregnant, she is just not stopping it from happening.  No pill, no condoms, nothing.  Not a conversation to have with someone who you are in love with, but I have it and then I tell her how maternity leave works and how she can get it.  We talk about baby showers, and about how she doesn't think she will get one, because she has few friends.  And I am at that point imagining what I would get her.  I don't want to be getting another woman expensive baby equipment for a baby that isn't mine for a woman that I am in love with again.  But I know that I would, because it is the right thing to do.  The right thing for me is to bleed.  If it doesn't hurt me, it must be wrong.

I talk to her while bringing in my clothes and I say that I will be hanging my clothes on the line in the winter.  I tell her a tall tale about how cold it gets in Smallville.  When we hang the cloths on the line in the Winter, they freeze solid.  When you fold them you have to be careful or they might break.  My mother once folded a pair of pants and the legs broke off, she told me to wear them in the Summer and that was how shorts we're invented.  She interrupted me before I finished for a physics lesson on how clothes dry in the winter.  She did not interrupt that story.  I told her that she used to be good in science and she should have continued in University.  She told me that she did, but they were talking about evolution and she did not want to hear all those lies and dropped e course.  Which made me sad.  Corrupted as she was against science from where she once was.

From that point the conversation was a bit strained.  She left telling me that she would call again, but not regularly.  My goal with her is to make conversations easy and free without hassle.  Joy and happiness.  Jesus will walk the Earth in 5-10 years from now, as her people have been telling the world for 150 years.  Maybe I will be dead soon.

Tuesday, 17 September 2013

Can't sleep not tired 3am

Warning depression rant

I am depressed again, perhaps still would be a better descriptor.  What is that like for me?  I am still obsessed with sex, oh no It is not going to be talking about sex again, but seriously, really it is like this: I AM obsessed about sex, but I am utterly uninterested in anyone I know, see or can imagine, so WTF?

I looked at the dating websites again, big mistake.  OkCupid, the best one because you can answer a ton of questions and the site compares your answers with other peoples and gives you a rating on how compatible you are with them.  There is one person in 50km of me and they rate 42% compatible, she has a giant beer in her hand in her picture, loves going Mudding, and thinks books are things she doesn't have to worry about anymore because she is out of high school.  100km out there are more hits, better hits, but really now that I am carless, I am never going to meet them.  In any case, when I did have a car and did travel to meet them they all declined because they could not consider dating someone so far away.  250km away, Gold, over a hundred women that rate 90%+, but they all live in Big Smoke.   These women are about 50/50 bi/straight, but they live in Big Smoke, a city where the women are known around the world as the most finicky and often cold personalities; if you don't measure up to her ideal man, you are gone.  I am not anyone's ideal anything, so while I might be a near as you can get perfect match for these women, intellectually, metaphysically and socially, I am not their ideal match in many other ways, specifically financially, sociableness and quirkiness.  Reading a few of their profiles I also get that I may have been born ten years too early for theses women too; they are not looking for long term commitment and certainly not someone in their forties.

What are women looking for?  I have talked to my female friends over the past twenty years and they are all looking for excitement and spontaneity.  Which I think is a really cruel joke because, I have also talked to women older than me who wish that they could have throttled their younger selves, because the exciting spontaneous man left them bankrupt, heart broken or both, while the more boring predictable person would have left them happy, so they tell me to cheer up, they will realize what they really need one day.  One day when they are old and gray.   

Enough of the self pity.  I know why I am living:  I am living so that my parents won't have to attend my funeral.  I will try to live, I will try to love until they die and then I will too.

Sunday, 8 September 2013

Family Reunion

Asperger's is sucky for so many reasons.  Better since they decided to drop the name and include it into the wider definition, Autism Spectrum Disorder.  Because no two are exactly alike, together we represent very many conditions, like the rainbow splits light into its spectrum of wave lengths of light, so is Autism.  

I have come out only to a few family members.  Two were my parents, who are like most people discriminate against mental illness, told me that I should not listen to my girlfriend of the day and to wake up.  The other I expected more from so I was most disappointed, and since their opinion would be counted more weighty than mine, I never told another.  I told my Aunt, who was a teacher and therefore would, should have been more open to the condition, the disorder.  Such, as I have already eluded to, was not the case.

She dismissed me out of hand.  She told me that she met one of them once and he acted completely different from me.  There, that is done with.  She was a teacher.  People see one example, an extreme example, and assume that that one example applies to the entire set of that type.  How would  you feel if all men were tarred instantly with the reputation of e first man a woman met?  What if every man were then assumed to be assholes and jerks, well actually that might be a valid judgement, but seriously what if every man was instantly assumed to be an abuser based on one or a series of interaction with one person?  That would be stupid, everyone can see that, but not with mental illness or like Autism, a genetic disorder or an environmental anomaly.

So the dreaded day arrived, a family reunion, all e descendants of my grandmother and their spouses and children.  I have two first cousins, both married with children and I have one sister also married with children.  Don't get me wrong, I like my cousins both of them, well all of them as I have three across the pond in Europe, but all at once, me and seventeen other people.

Parents, Aunt and Uncle, two Cousins two nephews, and three second cousins (my cousins children) and three spouses.  All know me to varying degrees, all who know I went to teachers College and I am not working as a teacher.  All of them want the best for me, but none of them can I tell the deepest part of myself.  Obviously I am an introvert, but still the is more, because they can see how pained I am at this event.  Each of them there is a story.

Stories

Parents. Everyone has the same story on parents who have been together forever, right now getting close to forty-five years.  Not really a story other than I suspect strongly that the genetic component of my Autism comes from my father and quiet a lot of the learned behavior too.  He believes he is normal, we all do, that is why it hurts.

Sister.  I think that one should wait.

Aunt and Uncle.  What needs to be said, I stated it above, burnt once thrice shy.  Growing up with an introvert Father who was in control of the transportation meant that all visits were short.  It is tough to get to know people when your exposure to them is limited to two or three hour visits when your own introversion takes minimum of two hours to conquer.  As a child I found both of them intimidating, my Aunt is about a meter eighty and built like my father, large, but not fat, just large.  I only really got to know her when she and my Uncle came to the city for the annual Mayors convention, yes he was mayor of his town for years.  Which is why I told her.

Cousin one, older than me.  As we were estranged from our cousins by way of our father and distance, neither my sister or I would be expected to be close, except for my sister who decided that she would go to college and my cousin decided to go to the same college and they even were in the same program and so they rented together and they became very close.  They became close, but not us.  She married and had two children and they stayed close, my sister and her, but I never had a lot to do with them.  They were each others Maid of Honour at their respective weddings.  I would ay that there is a gap between us all.

Cousin two.  Huge gaping gap.  Because we interacted though.   Because of me.  He has a checkered past, as we all do, just more deeply checkered than others and this is family knowledge, which is another reason I don't tell family any thing they don't need to know.  He married his post secondary school girlfriend, a brown girl, technically beige, because she is Indian-English, if you met one you would know but if you haven't then here it is in brief: a nearly pure bred mongrel sub race created when the English controlled India.  They are a mix of the two and believe they, generally, are better than both.  They are a cohesive community and typically only marry within this group, typically.  There is talk about them in the family that I am not privy to, it is mostly about his wife and the typical, "she is not good enough" talk, but there are other things.  I like them both, I ofcourse like anything vaguely Indian, so I really do have nothing but warm feeling for the both of them, but I can't talk to them and every interaction seems to go horribly wrong somehow in my mind.  Add that we lived in the same city and I never talked to them because of my horrible social blunders and embarrassment.  When you like someone, every time you put your foot in your mouth it feels like there are two feet in there.  So I don't talk with them and I am sure they know that the family talks about them and they can assume they likely assume that that includes me, but I am just too awkward to say anything to improve that notion or whatever.  Stirred to inaction. And they have the only girl of the five children.  I love children, but I really like girls most of all.

Sister.  Four hundred forty-three days apart, night an day, oil and water.  One year apart in school so we were always compared.  One year apart in school meant she was always a threat that I had to keep ahead lest I found myself in her grade.  As it was remarked from one of my classmates in a new school in a new town that we moved to, "She's your sister?  What happened to you?"  life together was never easy, because we were so different.  I was told likely when I was three, that I was not to hit my sister, so I did not, but she was not told likewise and so she did.  There were fights, daily fights, weekly fights later monthly fights.  She bullied me.  She told the local bully that he was not allowed to beat me up, that was for her to do.  There were the knife incidents, where she chased me around the house with a butcher knife; I knew she was not playing, I knew she wanted to be a single child, my bedroom door can attest to that.  I did not start to fight back until my last year of high-school.  My ager was less in check and I was twice her size.  I did not hurt her permanently or seriously but I let her know I was not going to take it.  The first time I was playing a computer game and I through her under the table and put my foot on her neck with just enough pressure before resuming my game.  The second time I choked her to unconsciousness while she hit me repeatedly, that was the last time.  Things improved when we moved away and had four hundred kilometers between us.  Later, much later we even lived in the same city, and we saw each other once or twice a year and discovered we had som similarities, we both like Star Trek and a few other things.  We talked occasionally.  A few years ago, just when MPTR was severely messing with my head, she needed my help.  Her Nanny that she hired so she could go back to work was not working out and I agreed on short notice to step in and take over for a few months. Until she got a new nanny.  I was there for five months before I had to leave to start a different job.  We are closer now, but distant.  I can talk to her husband, but feel out of place.  

So yesterday all of us were crammed in together socializing.  There were way too many people there for me.  And I felt terribly out of place.  It was like being with people that you knew of who knew of you and talked about you and knew all your history of, but you knew only a fraction of what they knew of you, of them.  They asked me about how my job search for a teaching position was going.  I lied to them because my Summer's realization about exactly how horrible a communicator I am made me realize that my dream of being a teacher was a baseless fantasy.  That my ability to read people's body language, the 95% of communication, was almost totally nonexistent thanks to the Autism, that I would be a horrible teacher, in the extreme.  But I could not tell any of them that.  Luckily non of my total failure was portrayed on my face, thanks to the same awesom autistic mask.  Add that I was the only spouseless person there, except for the nanny, the only one who had no children, including the nanny.  The meal was a a carnivore's wet dream, three kinds of ribs and a few token salads.  My attempts of humour all fell flat, as usual.  To say that I felt uncomfortable there 

I gave up a day of work from my meger paycheck to go to Family Reunion so that I could feel uncomfortable and more of a peoria than I usually am in my isolated life.  I feel that I made other people there uncomfortable and I felt that people might have gotten the wrong idea.  I wanted to go sit in the car and read, ie hide out.

Ask me about eating in public sometime, including family events.

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

Nameless One in the Slave States

Once again I have been in the Big Smoke for the weekend, the last time that I will be able to get down there. It is my goal to keep things positive and my friend and his family is the most positive thing in my life.  I wish that I could take a picture and show you all, but my friend is not even on Facebook, and I know that he would object to pictures of them circulating on the Internet.  And I respect that, moreover that is my philosophy as well.  My Facebook profile does not have any pictures of me on it.  And I don't take pictures of people without their permission, which is the reason why I am not good at taking pictures to the travel blog that I occasionally try to contribute to.

Positive things in my life.  I started Role-Playing again.  You have to understand what that is and what it means to me.  Role playing is a game where one person sets a series of challenges before a group of people playing one persona apiece.  The players are playing one individual who has goals and desires that may be goals and desires that they cannot express in reality, but also live in situations and with difficulties beyond what people experience in reality and they live in fantastic settings that mirror our own reality a bit or almost not at all.  These players try to get ahead in a world where they are the most important people in it.  They are characters from the book that you are currently reading, they probably have more going on behind their heads though.

The Story Teller is the setting, the antagonists and the faceless majority that the players interact with.  He is the plot and the integration of the setting with the goals and the desires of the players.  He is the agency by which the players have fun or do not.  At the beginning of play the setting is a cardboard two dimensional thing that changes the first time that a player dons the mask of his character and makes a choice to interact with it.  The setting after that moment is forever reacting to that choice and the choices that were made from that point going forward.

I do not like playing as a player.  This is an Asperger's thing, which stems from my own difficulty with social interactions.  The hope is alway that my social awkwardness is not tied to my character and that my character will interact smoothly.  It is dependent on the Story Teller to know where I find pleasure and what sort of interaction I prefer, because I don't often tell people and I generally take up a support role in groups.

As a Story Teller I actually excell.  I tend not to play until I have a deep understanding of the setting in my mind and I can then have a feel for how the town where the players start out from, the nation state that the town resides, the trade network that the town is a link to and the world whose powers may react to the rumours of the character passing by.  When a rock skips across a still pond the ripples spread out to the far reaches and edges; the frogs and the water bugs take notice, the fly leaps out of the way and the frog eats it.  The stone settles to the bottom, after it's journey, scattering small fish.  The rock disturbs the large bottom feeder and stirs up the mud.  Such can be the passage of the player character.

My friend wanted to play for a while now, a few years actually.  He had his character made up right from the start and he chose the setting.  I just had to flesh out the setting in my mind and deal with my life in the of the past few years.  The setting I worked on and off from the start, see the post I made about the slave states back in January.  The tough part for me has always been one thing, thinking quickly on the fly and getting names and motivations of setting characters.  My strengths are modifying the setting based on character's actions.  

In this game, the player Exalted before the story started.  The game we were playing people have two souls as the Egyptians believed, a lower souls the body and the higher soul the personality and experiences.  The lower soul dies and goes away.  The higher soul, when the body die, goes to the underworld where it waits reincarnation and is remade into a living person.  The Gods created long ago a third soul that they joined to their champions to fight their own battle against the Premordials in a battle that paralleled the Greek Gods' battle against the Titans of that mythology.  This third soul boosts the character into greatness and grants them powers beyond that of normal men.  And due to the fickle nature of Gods, they were hunted down by lesser men in a period after the great war was won.  But some of the powerful third souls still wait out of circulation, until the right person comes along who can bring change in the world.  My friend's character is one such individual.

When he Exalted, burst forth with power that came with the merger of the Third and greater soul, he was being tortured for escaping for a second time both as a slave and throughing off his addiction to mind numbing drugs, he killed his captors with his barehands.  He hid his identity by murdering all the witnesses to his crime that were aware of him and his capture that night.  The night for him was burned into his mind with that of the unexpected power at came to him, but with all similar traumatic events, some of the details were obscured from his mind.

When he created his character, the setting that he chose had information about what was happening in the land and the rumours are flush through the land.  I don't like to have the characters in my settings to have to compete with the canon story of e setting.  When he read that there were a group of escaped slaves that were engaging in a desperate battle to free others and remain uncaught against the oppressive might of the Realm, he thought it would be interesting to find them and join up and to aid them in their plight.  There were rumours that the attackers would occasionally kill oppressors and leave a bloody hand print at the scene as a calling card.

When my friend's character Exalted, he was not thinking clearly.  The people that he killed bled freely and his killing was not clean in all cases.  When e scene was discovered in the morning, bleeding dying men had crawled slid through the gore, bloody hand prints everywhere.  When he killed, his hands covered with blood, evidence of his assault was spread everywhere he touched; hand prints everywhere.  The calling sign of the merciless band of exslaves may have started elsewhere and may have been mythologized through the slave populations, but never before as boldly as was done on the walls of the domicile  and impromptu torture chamber.

Without knowing so he created an uproar in the setting and was mythologized in the setting, without meaning to.  Heading back into the setting after a few months to recuperate from the strangeness of his sudden and unexpectant second birth, he tries not to make waves, but is seeking oppressive slave masters and for away to dismember the Slave States from within.  He tires to remain unobserved and he sees the nation with new eyes, not as a slave, not through eyes drugged to the gills, the populations docile and maleiable.  He discouveres that the population he thought was one thing is another.  That the oppression, while still there, has been contained behind many walls of security, passive and vigilant.  The people from neighboring communities can not speak with their neighbours because they lack a common language.  Towns are far apart and therek is untamed wilderness between them.  The cities are filled with wards where languages are different from ward to ward and communication with the Realm's Bureacracy is through written transcripts and he, uneducated, cannot read.  But luckily he does speak the language used by the administrators, the language of the Realm.  

His first foray into the city he investigates who might be controlling the land and who he must focus his attention on, he scales the local palace and administrative building to find what he can find out.  He Unfortunatly arrived when most of the head men were out of town, the local Patrician of the Realm and his family were in the Capitol and they had left only minor functionaries, monks of the Immaculate Order, the main religion of the realm is preached far and wide, but his only managed to gain a foothold outside the Realm in its  Satrapies, like the Slave states, but the monks enforce the rules of the religion upon the local spirits and minor Gods through supernatural Martial Arts, based on the Shaolin Monks.  There was one other there, the Dragon Lord.  Dragon lord means that he is the commander of a thousand  soldiers of a Realm Legion, which contains five dragons.  Leader of a dragon does sound impressive, but the full Eighth Legion is spread across the four slave states.  More impressively he is also the head of the local slave army, which amounts to about a tenth of the slave population, which number many ten thousand in this smallest slave state.  

My friend's character executed a flawless infiltration of the palace seeking out the Patrician, only to be foiled by his absence.  Seeking a secondary target, he looks for loot to steal or information that he might use for future assassination trips he finds the Dragon Lord, but does not know that he is indeed that person or what that means as his life as a slave before was that of the lowliest of the low and he had no knowledge of such things.  The Dragon Lord awakes by chance and the Nameless, as he calles himself hides behind a fully dressed armour stand.  The General, not expecting anything settles back to sleep, but is still suspicious from long years as a general and fakes sleep, gripping his knife under his pillow.  The Nameless feels that the soldier has drifted off to sleep and takes one knife from e weapons rack and steals out of the room.  The general then stirs after a minute and quickly begins to don his armour, which looks vaguely Japanese including face mask and informs the lead Immaculate Monk on the level before heading out to follow the intruder, alerting guards on his way.

The Nameless, unsatisfied with the creeps down e stairs to where his earlier sneaking revealed the presence of a guard, whom he has desired to interrogate.  He takes great care to sneak up on him quietly, which takes time if you are not using supernatural powers, which he was not, allowing the General time to don his armour.  As his interrogation wraps up the General stealthily sneaks down the stairs behind him.  Distracted be the conversation he does not notice the general's quiet footfalls.  Laying the guard's newly lifeless body upon the ground after questioning him, he turns to find general neatly drawing his sword and charging to attack.

This is a turn of events, because the character thought that he was unobserved and had been sneaking quietly through the palace.  He quickly pulls his bow from his back as the warrior charges forth with a war cry. The soldier raises his arm to cut the intruder in half as e Nameless one set an arrow in place and casually aims for the eye hole in the mask and looses.  The arrow buries itself deep into the eye and the warcry turns to a scream, but through force of will continues his charge.  The Nameless one passes under his guard and slams his vambrace into the arrow in his eye, similtaneously mushrooming the shaft and breaking the tip which was lodged deeply in his brain, pulpifying what was left of it.  The general drops dead.  Alarm has been raised as the Nameless assassin dives out the sodden walls of the palace and into the quiet of the city and soon over the walls and away.

Imagine that you have been cloistered, shut away from the world your entire life.  Imagine how your life was a slave in this fictitious nation.  You were born to a drug addicted mother.  You were likely born in a field and your entire childhood you were forced to do the most menial tasks, the ones that you could do, until you were big enough to carry heavy loads and work in the fields.  From your earliest memories you have been drugged and addled, worked to the point of weariness and fed the most basic foods, lentil mash and water, for years.  And then one day you are given chocolate.  

The Nameless stole from caravans headed to the city, foods destined for the bellies of the Patrician class.  He ate candied hams, cakes and sugar.  Luxury foods rich in butter and fat after decades of gruel.  He got to the Capitol city and found the Harbour, against the ocean, two things amongst thousands he had never seen before.  Wooden castles on the sea.  People that were white as snow, black as night, green like leaves and every shade in between.  People who have never known the cruel stroke of a whip and people who got food and drink in exchange for shiny bits of metal and small slips of paper.  Concepts like buy and sell, money, services, entertainment were all foreign to him.  

He could hunt, he could clothe himself in the skin of animals, but he knew not how to interact with these people and he saw that if he were going to tear down this society he was going to have to understand it first.  So he spent time watching people in the Harbour.  Almost all the people here were foreigners and he felt they were better than the people that he had come to destroy, so he emulated them first, but he did not feel safe around them.  Not feeling safe, he established a den far from the city in the woods amongst a thicket and copse of trees and buried his prize possessions so that they would not be found.

Quiet observation led to experimentation.  Using coins that he took from the purses of unobservant travelers, he tried one thing and another until he got the hang of things.  Then he decided that he would gain more knowledge and information if he made some friends or contacts of some of the foreign people and more specifically the kind that preferred to keep things to themselves and quiet.  

After finding the local black market, he quickly set about gaining their trust by performing any task they desired as quickly as he could.  He discovered that the movement of all people was strongly discouraged and that all free people had papers proving such and slaves that passed boarders had other papers that let them do so too.  He had no papers and in any case could not read.  Remedying the first problem was easy, as easy as attacking and killing a local slave Bounty Hunter called a Jackal, feared by all slaves as vicious hunters and killers who hunted escaped slaves.  They were the only slaves in the Slave state area that had free movement between the settlements and who could one day buy their freedom, if they could acquire enough captured slaves.  The Nameless One did not think anyone would miss one after dropping the last rock on his shallow grave and picking up his papers and equipment.  


Two sessions over five hours of late evening sessions got us this far.  I will have to do some planning to get a better story and a few names and places and objectives for my friend the next time we play.  He wants me to come and stay with them for a week in the winter and that will mean a weeks worth of role playing.  Which I am okay with.  I like making plans and executing them.  I like creating a fun filled story.  I love the way that character actions change what happens within an established setting.

Many years ago, TSR published a Dungeons & Dragons story line called The Temple of Elemental Evil.  It was a great story in a rich setting that I had memorized as only someone with AS could.  The setting was published in the early '80s, and the story in about '84 and in the early '90s an update to the world where a horrible series of wars wreaked the continent about five or six years after the original setting time.  The thing was that the story, the Temple of Elemental Evil, was wrapped quite closely to the story of the setting.  Agents of the Temple kidnapped the son of the King of Furyondy, the son was betrothed to the only child of the neighbouring Theocracy of Veluna and these two nations of light were the beacon opposing the nations of Evil on the continent, the Nation of Iuz, ruled by the Demigod Iuz a demon of immense personal power.  The kidnapped prince was held captive within the Greater Temple complex of Elemental Evil.  The demon Iuz had invested part of his power therein.  Two years later, the war would come and it would bring Furyondy to its knees and blowing out the candle of light on the continent.  Enter the PCs, Player Characters.  They stormed the Temple, they freed the Prince, the weakened the Demon Iuz.  The Prince married the Priestess, assumed the throne and united the two nations, who together fought the war from strength on a demon who was weakened.  My players knew that their characters had changed history.  I know that they all look back on that campaign and remember it fondly.

Several years later, Dungeons & Dragons was revived and Greyhawk was returned as the principal setting and we all read it again.  The setting had been changed, but something caught each of our eyes as one thing that had happened in that campaign years ago was mentioned in the setting that was so singularly unique that it gave us all a pause to see it in print in the knew setting. Perhaps I might even tell you what it was in a future posting.