Seventh texted me tonight.  She hurts me by just existing sometimes, they all do.  Why do they all live in my heart?  Why can't I just move on.  Every woman that I have loved, came close to loving, lives in me forever and will never give me peace.  And I can never tell them that they are my ruin, because they are.  Ruin and salvation all in one.

How I love her despite the time that has past.