Poetry, shuttered window to the heart

When I write poetry, I like to write free flowing thoughts, however it feels amateurish, but when I do that it I am happy with it.  It does not feel formal though, because it isn't.  I want to put it up a level I will add constraints, rules.  I tend not to like rhymes, but I do like hidden messages like the first letter of each line spells out a message, sometimes the last letter too.  If I ever get inspired I would write a series of poems, each poem has a hidden line to a hidden poem.  A series of poems that have a hidden poem within and of course, the hidden poem has a hidden message too.  I was starting the initial stages of this project for MagicEyes before that fell through.

Rhyming for me I can do, but it is not enough.  I could count syllables that coul be interesting.  I just thought of another hidden message technique, the count of syllables in a line corresponds to a letter in the alphabet which spells out a secret message.  Do I have a issue with saying I love you?  No, I have an issue being rejected afterwards, perhaps hiding the message of my love can appear accidental or as proof or as deniable if rejected.

I can't do iambic pentameter, I have no sense of rhythm and it extents to this mode of writing as well as songs.

— Is rhythm a social idea that eludes Autistic people as reading people?  Should investigate that, is it just me or is it an insight?

I have to go,

I am depressed still, must be the talk of love and the song on the radio, Someone I Used to Know.