What is autism like?

It is like a game that you are playing, where you don't know all the rules, but you know the first rule is that no one talks about the rules.  Most people know enough of the rules to play the game, but you don't.  You have to play the game through trial and error.  The game is long and it is complex like chess.  In the end you can look back and see your mistakes and discover the rules.  After many games you can look back and see such rules are real rules and such ones aren't.

Makes you want to stop playing the game, but you are hooked and so you keep playing and losing.