Paranoia

The unknown eats at me
I feel myself secure
Relatively secure
Others are secure too but
I am never sure.

The others are my friends
The others have other friends
They are loved
They are alone
And I fear for them.

The anxiety overwhelms
Panic ensues
They must be dead
Or hurt and cannot
Tell me otherwise.

Frantic irrational concern
Panic totality
I must find out
I must save
Without me they are doomed.

Always I panic
I love them all
I need them
They define me,
For them I am nothing at all.