AS people can not read people very well; we can't read body language we can't express through body language very well. But we do feel things and when people feel things we try to understand what people are feeling, we empathize with them. In other words if you are sad, we feel your pain literally. I have a friend who internalizes every death and treats it like it happened to him. Imagine going through life with a close family member dying every few months, that is what it is like for him. I try to snap him out of it and try to give him some perspective but the truth of the matter is, I do it too.
For me it is injustice. I internalizes the grievances of others and I get angry. Angry and AS is a really bad combination, for me there is no pressure release and I can be angry and others may not realize it, because I do not seem angry. I am seething. I am the pressure cooker just before the pot explodes, Vesuvius before it destroyed Pompeii. And then I lose control. And then I get fired. I really can't control my anger when it is upon me. That is not true, I have never hurt anyone when I get angry, but I have come very close. When I get angry I get stronger. I am a big person and I can lift my own weight, when I get angry, however, I can trow my own weight.
I said that injustice gets me angry. I internalize it and I start to bubble. I need to be in a situation where I can solve the problem I need to be able to control the situation and end the injustice. My current situation I have very little say and my friends is getting tag teamed right now by people who were not even there and it is making me angry. You don't want to make me angry!
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