Broken?

I was reminded recently of another way that I am not normal.  My longest relationship lasted about a year.  And when it was over I could not look at another woman for years and it took 8 years for me to get into another relationship.  After that, I had another and it took me five years to get into another.  Then it was a six month relationship and it took me 18 months to even think about another relationship and five years to get one.  That is me.  I am scared currently that if this relationship does not last, I will be alone for the rest of my life.

But I am the odd one out.  An acquaintance just this Summer ended a two year relationship a month before taking her vows and she was up and running with a new person within a few months.  Other friends end long relationships and at back in new ones after a month more or less.  I makes me feel like I am broken.

#Autism; #Demisexual; #Demiromantic