Seventh and final

And then it ended.  I have de-friended Seventh. Or Seven.  Named for her religion, Seventh Day Adventist.  I have deleted her from Facebook and I am excising her from my life.  She has my number and she will preside in my heart forever, but I just can't do it anymore.  Two weeks ago she came to Big Smoke for a month to visit.  Last week I asked if she was free, we could go out and do something, look for mushrooms in a park, find lunch visit parts of the city she had not been to seek out fun.  Bring her baby, I did not care.  Two friends having fun.  And she was excited.  And then it happened again.  Again.  Every-time she is on the verge of having fun with me she thinks about it for a few days and then spoils it.  Invariably it is her religion that does it.  It is inappropriate that she, a true believer, should hang out with an atheist.  It is inappropriate because I am luring her away from her belief that the world is coming to an end in 5-10 years and everyone will be judged based on their associations and piousness.  This time it was different.  It was: it is inappropriate for a married woman to hang out with a single man and have fun without her husband present.  To chaperone her, because obviously she still has feelings for me and might act on them in public, because that is what immoral atheists do.  Nevermind that I am the only person who was in a sexually heated situation with her and did not use it to my advantage and respected her wishes.  She confided in me and told me private things in her life, which I will not share here ever, because it would set a bad precedent and they were told to me in confidence.  I love this girl more than anything, but I won't rape her, like more than half of the people on her list did.  I love her so I respect her wishes.

I love her so much, but I can't bare making more plans with her to have her crush them because her stupid doomsday religion says so.  I won't be friends with someone who sees my company as some trial that needs to be resisted.  

I am tired giving everything into a friendship and getting nothing out of it.

But you see, why should it stop with just her?  Why not delete the rest of the people in my life.