Witness

I was reminded of this a few days ago during a lucid heart to heart with a close friend.  My friend did not think I knew what they wanted, but I had known for years, a decade about at least.  What is the thing that men and women want?  If you do not know then you are too young to have contemplated it properly, but this is what you want, more than anything else.  Trust me, you want it and you are looking for it in the one you hold at night.  You may think you have it, I hope you do.

What you want more than anything else is a witness.  A witness to witness your life with you.  Someone that you can talk about what happened this day the last and all the days after this one.  Your witness accepts everything that happens to you, the accept you.  They are not trying to change you, but they are there for when you change and when things happen to you.  Your witness is proof that you lived and existed, because as you know, unless people are always around you they do not appear to actually exist, so it is important that one does and that a record of your life remains.

The form that this person takes is not important, really, only that they do in fact exist, that they witness your life.  They could be your best friend or they could be your lover.  They could be both.  Once important thing is that you have a witness.

One day you will want this more than anything else.  When you have it you will want to fight for it to keep it.  

There are anew things that I am not certain about, like do you need a witness if you have children?  If you have children, then they are proof that you did exist. I am not sure if you need a witness if you have a child, that they may be your witness, but I suspect that you need another witness.

I need someone to share my life with, so that I can be sure that I am alive, these words you read, are they put here by your imagination?