Too many directions

There is too much to write about

There is the psychology of a Crush

There are books I have read

There are movies that I have watched

There are conversations that I have had that have opened my mind

There are breakthroughs in my behaviours

There are personal stuffs that I don't want to share with all people, but I will, because starting a new blog would be like abandoning what I have already written.  And it would be like saying that me sharing MagicEyes and MPTR with the world was okay but not sharing my life with them was not.

Then there is MPTR, who has a blog, and we have patched things up better, which means we understand each other and we will never be together again, but we might talk.  

There is the realization that I am still in love with MagicEyes, even though we never kissed, not even once.  The realization that I still love MPTR too, and India, not to mention Seven.  The realization that MagicEyes still cares about me and is very casually creeping my doings.  Seven cares about me too, her first phone call after gaining a cell phone was to me.  India, I don't know, I willingly gave her up in January of  1998 and have not heard from her since, what is that, 16 and a half years ago.  Which is a coincidence because FlyGirl is 16 years younger than I am and she is the newest chapter in my heart.  There is Poly, who I want to love, because she is such a close match intellectually, who should be a shoe in for my heart, but whom I have too little context with to develop a relationship.  FlyGirl, maybe SuperGirl, not sure, both names fit, she is really special too.

There is just to much to talk about that I don't know where to start.  Perhaps tomorrow I will spend some time writing and you will learn more.