Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Another Crush

I swear, if I ever kill myself depression won't be the cause, it will be unforfilled love

I don't want to ever have a crush ever again.  I hate them.  I never want to be in love with someone that just wants to be friends.  I hate it.  On one side it feels great that I feel this way, but on the other hand I want to die, unless they kiss me.  But that will never happen.  I want to die.

I hate how people around me can tell.  I hate that the person I am in love with can't.  I am also happy that they can't.  I fear the moment that they find out.  I want to die.

Why can't there be a way to fall in love with someone like other people do, you know, where the other person loves them back.  I hate that people around me have been predicting that I am going to fall in love with this person, but they won't do anything to stop it or help it along.  I want to die.

I want to live, with them in my heart, but I want to die because it never will happen.  I want to choose whether to love them or not.  I choose Not, but I don't get to choose; there is nothing for me.  At the conclusion of this path is sorrow,  for me alone.  I would rather die than go through it again.  I hate that there is nothing for me to do.

I want to die

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