Two people I think about

I miss Magic Eyes.  I told her when I first started seeing her that after we stopped that it would be difficult for me to start seeing other people because I form attachments slowly and lose them even slower.  For example, the last time I saw her, I found her to be the most attractive person I knew.  Later she said that she did not want to see me again, ever.  I was okay with that because I knew that I was at fault.  But every time I then went out I was thinking about her.  It has been months and last Sunday I went out to a local festival thing and I spent most of the time thinking about her and wishing that she was there.  But I don't miss her a lot.  I try not to miss her at all.  I started reading again, something I have not been able to do since More Passive Than Rain.  

MPTR still calls me.  She tells me disturbing things and expects me to keep them under my hat.  She told me that her Boyfriend has set up a camera in the woods outside her house with a motion detector that takes pictures when ever movement is detected.  He does this because he does not trust her.  He told her that he does not want her having visitors, nor does he want to her to leave the house.  He set the camera up to monitor who comes and if she leaves too.  He says that he will pack up his kid and leave if he sees her leave the house or someone he does not like, me, come to visit.  She also tells me that he has been commenting on news reports where a man kills his girlfriend or wife, by saying, "I wonder if she cheated on him?"  As if that is a valid reason to kill anyone, as if cheating is a valid reason to do any violence.  I asked her why she puts up with it?  But then, why do I bother; I named her More Passive Than Rain for good reason.   So I told her friend.  I will tell her family members.  I will tell you all.  But I will not go over there; he owns a gun and I think if I show up on the camera he will use it, twice.  

Magic Eyes, I miss you.  I see you reading my blog every once in a while, I stopped using SimCity and tumblr, because I did not see the point anymore.  But I do not want to be part of your life, I just want to miss you, that is it.  What I said about trans women loving lesbians holds water still.  I don't hate you, I never will, I never have. I want the best for you.  

If anyone of you knows MPTR, please go over there and talk some sense into her and knock that camera out of its tree.