Happy

You know what?  I think I am happy!  Really just happy.  I have a great girlfriend, Natural20, good friends who I roleplay with regularly, running the said games, I get enough exercise, I just changed jobs a few months ago and I really enjoy that, and I moved recently to a place that has a balcony, so I am getting back into growing flowers and stuff.  I would say that it is all her fault, my girlfriend, she is the root of everything good in my life recently.  Really.  She helped me find a job at a difficult juncture and a place to live and later she got on my butt to apply for this job and move to this place and I have been roleplaying with her too.  And the sex :)!  

Let me be clear.  I love you Natural20, I named you well.

I have been riding to work almost every day, the rest I have been taking a very short ride with transit.  I have been transporting soil with me on the way home and four plants per trip and when I was tracking transit, hanging baskets and window boxes to plant in.  They are pretty ugly, but we will see what they look like in a few weeks.  I have been Myking them up, fertilizing them, and watering them too.  Soon I will start to add fertilizer in the water.  I think of my uglies and I relax.  I need to clean up my balcony, leaves, cigarette butts, and coffee cups from before I was there, weeding the patio stones and more.  It would be nice if the Internet worked, but maybe I should take up reading on my patio surrounds by my plants!

The new job: I work in a garden centre.  The biggest one in all of the Big Smoke region.  I work on e Yard Crew, which is a branch of the Nursery.  We do the restocking, the maintaining of the site, unloading of the trucks, and many other things.  I get to work and I don't stop until after I am supposed to.  If someone doesn't tell me to go on break, I won't stop.  I don't like that it is minimum wage, but it is $14/hour so it is the best minimum wage since forever.  Still it is a loss of seniority in my mind.  On the other hand, there is a lot of independence and the position is has a lot of personal improvement potential.  My boss after two month wants me to be his foreman, but I have my sights on bigger fish: I want to be supervisor of the nursery.  And I had a brief argument with my leader.  He sees the supervisor position as a person breaker; there have been as many supervisors as there have years that he worked there, but he does not understand how I enjoy a challenge that is within my reach and capabilities.  He told me that he would quash my attempt by going to the manager of the store himself and at he would be my enemy if I did so.  I threw the first words he told me right back at him and it may have mollified him a bit, a tiny bit; I said that I would do the best work I could do for e company and that means I would do what needed to get done, including working with him to make the store the best store in the company.  

The other thing I like about the work place is the inculsivity of it.  There are people of all ages, genders, and outlooks.  There are gay and straight employees and there are a lot of young people; it feels like a school in so many ways.  The young people are half idiots and half girls… what does that say about the gender gap.  I was bullied for a bit by a coworker, but they got themselves into a some trouble and got fired, so no problems there.  The trouble I see with this place is that it feels like home.  The work is all very familiar and I have gotten comfortable too fast.  I feel that because I am so comfortable that I will let out my inner personality and that might be bad, for this workplace, because I am touchy/feely— not in a bad way, but in a way that can be interpreted as inappropriate.  So I try to be on guard, of myself.  

It has been a while since I have genuinely liked all of my employees.  I mean I like my crew from last year, but the rest could have gone to hell, and my boss!— he was a bigger asshole than me!  My crew last year was underpaid compared to the rest of the crew, hired before them, more experienced and he refused to give any of them a raise.  When customers came in to complain, they complained about every part of the company except our crew.  But in my new job I feel appreciated.  

Did I tell you I like me room better than almost any place I have lived in the past!  The room is about a third larger than my last room, it costs a third less and it has a balcony that adds another third to the room, private balcony.  The main problem with it is that I can put all my stuff away and I feel I have to have boxes in the room to make it fell up the space.  There is a screen door and a double sliding door.  I don't think I have had the double doors closed yet and truthfully usually they are both open.  Truthfully half the time the screen door is open, on account that city people don't know what bugs are really like and so one or two taking a tour of my room is mild loss for having air move freely.  There is a slight problem in that cigarette and cannabis smoke moves freely in too, but small price to see the sky and the sun with nothing blocking it.  I do occasional tours of the building.  There are about 90 apartments on each level and two levels, all in the space of a rural property or about ten suburban properties.  There is underground parking, where the recycling is located… took me a while to find out the recycling was there, because I don't have a car!  There is a gym and a pool in the basement, but I have not tried them out… I wonder if the pool is open after midnight?  

I want to spend time on my balcony this summer reading surrounded by my plants.  Life is great!