Talk

 Don't post from cell phones that often.  I need to talk to someone.  I would prefer to speak to a human, rather than you.  Excuse me WaifGirl if you feel I sure my insides too much.  You too Greg.

I need to talk to someone.  I can't talk to anyone in my life without it being thrown back at me by some people, shared widely by some and can't talk to some because it is about them.  I don't want to rudeness myself constantly on the rest.

I need help.  I am depressed.  It is not a chemical imbalance.  It is a relationship imbalance.  Loneliness imbalance.

I recently had a single friend tell me that they might be ready for a relationship.  I treated it as just information.  I told one person and they suggested that they were interested in me.  I had been depressed for two weeks.  That day was the best day in months.  The weekend was really good too.  I confronted y friend if that is what they meant.  No it wasn't. Instantly I deflated.  Instantly.

Instantly I was depressed again.  I know why I was depressed.  If my friend gets into a relationship, she will have no more time for me.  I will be happy that she will not be lonely, but I will be more lonely.

I have reached out for help.  But they can't cure it.

I wish the car that almost hit me last week was going faster.